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2006-02-21T02:03:00.000+08:00

This Blog Has "Officially" Pronunced Dead...
But The Feel... For Her.. Will Automatically Be Dead Right After 2006.. Which is This Year.. =)
So.. The Bottom Line Is..
The Blog Is Dead..
Goodbye~ But Do Stay And Crap In The Tag Board..

R.I.P
Andy's Beloved Blog
From:
8th August 2004
To:
21st February 2006

TaDaiMa~!!

2006-01-15T23:37:00.000+08:00

Tadaima.. boring.. work and work and work and rest.. sianx.. machiam going to haf a bounded life soon.. haix~ somehow.. i wish.. i'm always busy wif work.. damn bloody busy with work.. soooo i won't think of stupid stuff.. =/ stupid stuff.. things that are in the past..
people say it takes time to heal a wound.. hmm.. DAAAE...... it takes time and alot of effort.. unfortunately.. i didn't take the effort to do so.. forget... -.-X but..... feel soo kinda freeee..~~~~~~ single is good.. hur hur hur... no phone calls to disturb u.. no need to worry twice.. for urself and for ur another half.. total FREEDOM.. *rAwR!!!* envy?? roFL..
all i can say.. enagagin wif relations now.. bOoOO.. mada mada dane..~~ hehee.. Single Is Good..!!
dun need envy me la.. juz break with your bf/gf la.. MuHaHahAhAha.. =P
Alrite.. Lemme Just Wish All The Couples Out There.. Good Luck Being Together.. :)

2005-11-04T02:11:00.000+08:00

cant believe it man.. hafta work even though my o's is coming.. nxt wk?? somemore on public holiday... sian lo.. hari raya puasa.. haix~ can tell u.. todae is a super terrible day.. i meant every single F&B stores in singapore.. sure SLAM.. and busy like siao.. juz taking a small store like Starbucks in Compass Point.. Arrr.. i can briefly describe the whole day in 1 word.. which is.. BUSY..... haha.. but i managed to get all my breaks la.. feel sad for the other guys.. hehe.. yah.. after a day's work.. i feel kinda relieved.. and tired as well.. but cant sleep thou.. u wanna know why??
i'm thinking and laughing at the thoughts i had last yr.. Her.. Her.. & Her.. LoL... Damnit.. I Feel Sooo Super Stupid Right NOW!!! WhAHhAHA... then i browse thru this "memorable" blog.. WHAHAHA.. i mean.. SAD FOR WAD?? THINK SOO MUCH FOR WAD?? as if ppl cares liddat.. blah blah blah.. anyway.. i also dun care now.. well.. As A Frenz.. I Will Wish The Best Out Of Her.. BUT.. As An Admirer.. Or Stalker.... I Heck Care ar... Why? Feelings has faded.. awww.. that's sad..? NOOOOOO.. i doubt so.. I'm Happy And She's Happy.. 1 Lesser Pest To Deal With..
WeEeE.. I'm sooooo Free now~~ arr damnit la.. o's coming.. -.-X

Heed My Word Of Gold, Pals & Readers.. xD
Live Your Life To The Maximum Man!!
Feel Sad For A Day = Waste 24hrs of life..
Feel Happy For A Day = Earn Another 24hrs of life..
Feel Lonely = Waste One Precious Lifetime..
No Matter How Lonely U Feel.. There's Always FRIENDS.. FAMILY.. By Your Side...
Always... Till The Day When U Die..

Love, Itself Is Like A Double Edged Sword..
It Hurts People.. And It Hurts Himself..
But It Can Also Make People Happy..
Only When U're Being Loved By Who You Love..
Who Will Be The One You Loved, Love You?
Only Fate Itself Knows..
Why Not Make Everyday Of Your Life Happy
And Let Fate Decide When You Will Meet..
The One You Loved, Love You?
_nD.AkA.AnDY_
[The Magical "Poet-Wannabe"] xP

2005-10-04T14:23:00.000+08:00

aloha ppl~~ it's me again.. wooot... soo song.. MIA for 3 days..
MIA = Missing In Action..
got miss me..? i doubt so... -.-
i'm juz an ordinary peasant afterall.. =D
ordinary = happiness..
well.. been on chalet for 3 days 2 nights...
the 2 nights are terrible.. imagine 15+ guys in a small chalet rm.. with only 4 mattress.. and 4 blanket.. and 4 pillows.. i manage to steal the pillows for the 1st night.. but nothing on e second night.. lol.. then.. super noisy.. cannot sleep.. -.-X
then very early wake up.. zZzZz
but it's fun dudes...
-.-X first time staying out.. =P
oh.. and also..
spotted this cute girl at burger king sia.. omg.. but too bad.. no fate la.. hahaha..
cause.. u know.. my heart is still occupied.. xD
well.. i'm off again.. BLAH...
To The Infinity And Beyond!

2005-09-27T18:30:00.000+08:00

i needa study now!! NOW!!!
stttudiie.... ~~ -.-X boring lo.. study alone.. worst.. -.-
miss sch le.. haix~ miss her..?
everything in sch seems to be changing little by little everyday..
exams exams exams.. -.- students are bounded by all this crazy stuff that adults had implemented..
no time for basketball now..
no ka ki also..
ish either this 1 busy.. or dat 1 cannot make it..
sianx.. miss all the days we play basketball.. tok all those xia lan kia..
zZzZz now is tio tok.. >.<
sighx..
onto my nxt part of story.. -.-"
sianx.. starting to miss her..
yah.. THE SAME gurl.. -.-
u know.. i said i'll wait..... i guess.. i still will..
i GUESS..... well.. to be honest.. i wun know wad will happen tml.. or nxt wk.. or nxt month.. or nxt yr..
saying i DEFINITELY WILL WAIT.. sounds abit more irresponsible..
so.. i will say.. I will.. [i guess..] =P kinda irresponsible as well.. but.. at least.. it's better.. i think... =X
URGH.. i shuld stop using.. i guess.. i think..
for now.. i will say..
i really can find no one who's better than u.. yet? xD
whatever la.. i doubt she will be bothered to read a STALKER's blog... -.-"
no one will also read.. for my memories though.. :D
perhaps she's having some sort of end-of-yr exam fever now..
sighx...

To her.. u will still be in my mind.. for tml.. nxt wk.. and also nxt month.. no doubts..
u will still be in my mind.. for a long time.. a long long time..

[i'm a stalker.. a super duper crazy, ugly and persistent stalker, huh..?]
god
made
me
so
stubborn..
sighs.....

2005-09-21T18:35:00.000+08:00

i can tell u.. i'm better off dying..
seriously.. i have done nth much with my life..
16yrs 11 months and 1 week.. 1 normal life wif nothing exceptional...
juz a normal being in this world.. strangling to find a place to stand..
more money pls!! more!!! -.- i need more of it...
eehh... who doesn't? bleahx..
every women's wish to marry a rich man..
thus.. every man wishes to have a stable family.. and a family needs $$$... -.-X
ppl say $$ is not impt.. then u all give me then.. i say $$ is most impt..
sth which life cannot live without..

shall end here..

PS: i wanna see her smile again..

2005-09-14T22:10:00.000+08:00

well.. here i go crapping again.. i feel kinda lonely now.. yah it's true..
havan really get down studying yet..'cos there's been something up on my mind..
well.. heard that she's not been doing well lately.. kinda.. dunnoe la.. abit wadeva.. abit pissed off..
well.. there's really nth for me to do either.. haha.. dude.. i'm such an asshole sometime..
bored.. super bored.. feeling moody and down now.. coz wad i do.. doesn't come out e way i think.. ironically.. wad i hope it will not happened.. and it happened.. such a sicko life i have.. whatever stuff which is on e negative side.. will happen to me.. perhaps.. i'm 1 big unlucky lad..
now i really wish i can juz scream my lung out of my mouth.. shout everything out till i'm empty.. sucks..
life without spices.. really sucks.. totally..
boring..
and to everyone here who reads...
DO WHATEVER YOU LIKE.. YOUR LIFE.. LIVE IT..!! LIVE IT FOR YOURSELF.. AND NOT FOR ANYBODY.. NOT EVEN YOUR PARENTS..
ur parents..? heh heh.. they're juz like ur mentor.. juz like ur teacher.. they cant force u to do wad u dun like.. they only can TEACH.. ur life.. is in ur hand.. not anybody else..
Wooo.. i'm sick!! dun provoke me.. i bite...

2005-09-06T14:40:00.000+08:00

coz u're everywhere to me..
when i closed my eyes.. it's u, i could see..
everything i know.. that makes me believe..
i'm not alone~~ ohwoahohoh..

thank you for tunning into and.y fm.. duhx.. lame... -.-X
sighx.. trying to hype up my mood.. didn't sleep well... stupid..
getting wake up by some contractors.. drilling the path below.. -.-X
think they drilling it for e sake of changing a new coat of cement.. LAME..
lata still needa work at orchard building.. sighx.. attachment..
muz do things to prove dat compass point is a good store.. -.-
wadeva it means.. it means dat.. wadeva i do.. reflect my store's image.. duhx right..?
i tio complain.. doing attachment nvr do work.. -.-X lol.. i dunnoe how to slack la..
ppl slack.. nvr kanna.. i always slack.. always tio.. -.-
still mastering the art of slacking during work.. ROFL!!!

sian...boring.. i think afta this wk of work.. i'm going off for a 1 mnth break.. not doing nth la.. but playing games.. lol.. kidding kidding.. study... -.-X
everyone heard dat i taking a 1mth break to study.. they doubt me.. -.-X OIE.. is this call frenz..? -.-" nvr encourage me to study.. somemore see sway me.. -.-!!

wake me up when september ends...... xD

a new skin!!

2005-09-05T17:25:00.000+08:00

weeEeEee a new skin.. i find e picture beside cute.. haha.. well i'm NOT LONELY THOUGH!!
i got ppl ard me.. i juz feel dat.. i'm still too young to die.. woot... what's e past shall be e past.. and it shall not be repeated.. well.. did this skin within 15mins.. kinda rushy.. soo.. if anything wrong.. pls leave me a msg in e tag.. dun wanna put music liao.. lata ppl complain.. say si bei noisy.. *U know who u are..* haha.. well.. i think i all set to work.. bye peeps.. cya guys ard reaaaaal soon.. god will bless everyone.. =)

2005-08-24T14:59:00.000+08:00

having a running nose.. sighx.. sore thoart.. feeling unwell.. luckily.. need not to work for todae and tml.. :D yah.. but.. dun work.. nothing much i can do.. sian.. getting sick of my life.. well.. not much happened this past few days.. and nth much will happen the nxt few days too.. work and rest and work and rest.. my life is becoming like a routine.. i guess.. this is e real meaning of living.. even if i dun wan to live in a "routine" life.. i also can do nth abt it.. -.-X trapped.. struck in this society.. no wonder adults keep whining abt studying time is the most relaxing time of all.. it's true man.. more relaxed than retirement.. -.- retirement = waiting to die.. -.- not cursing all those old ppl.. but.. i'm juz stating the harsh reality..
haha.. i wanna go back to sch badly.. lol.. u might think.. i'm cracking a joke now.. a guy who's rebellious and disobeying sch rules over and over again.. wanna go back now.. haha..
no doubts.. i wanna go back.. ......ZzZz and study.. do hwk.. but i will still say this.. I HATE TO READ!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! there's actually no books dat i fancy.. "yellow" mag.. singapore cannot buy.. -.- FHM = A Child's Play.. lol..
-.- getting more and more pervertic than ever.. -.-"

2005-08-18T23:16:00.000+08:00

wah.. todae.. i seems so busy.. not sure why.. perhaps wanna know wad's the result for "superstar"
haha.. maybe..
haha.. juz knock off frm work.. at millieum walk.. haha.. i went der.. and i was lost.. Haha.. so the stores is at outside.. then i dunnoe.. i walk ard the whole mall like crazy guy.. haha..
the stores.. overall.. not busy.. coz of the rain.. hehe.. nice lo.. liddat.. dun need work like ox.. and earn e same as others.. most of the customers are super "classy" why i say dat.. corad hotel juz right beside.. alot of those are frm the western countries.. some of them were fierce.. haha..
well.. whenever i see those foriegn ladies.. wad comes into my mind is.. how would roxanna looks like when she's right in front of me.. haha.. =X
well.. i'm soo eager to see her.. but.. she's also busy.. haha.. hope she can come real soon..
hope.. she won't get soo stressed up for her cousin's wedding.. =) i cant help u anithing.. sighx...
cheer up and work up, roxanna~~!!

2005-08-14T13:33:00.000+08:00

hmm.. i'm soo blessed now.. knowing a girl who's soo pretty.. juz simply like an angel.. named Roxanna Riley.. xD lalalalala~~ sighx.. even though, she's my girlfriend now.. yup!!! she is.. but cant do wad a normal couple can do.. like chatting on phone, going out together or catch a movie together.. due to the fact that.. we are like half of the world apart.. now.. u're will think that.. i'm crazy.. i sound soo "stupidly" crazy.. how can i.. even we hadn't meet in real life yet.. i dun care.. i dun care.. i'll be waiting for her to come singapore~!! WeEeEeE.... =X

2005-08-03T23:07:00.000+08:00

You're beautiful. You're beautiful.
You're beautiful, it's true.
There must be an angel with a smile on her face,
When she thought up that I should be with you.
But it's time to face the truth,
I will never be with you....

sighx.. been seeing pretty girls this few days.. i know.. i wun get a chance to even talk to them..
yaya.. i'm a big fucker now.. peeping at girls.. BUT NO.. some juz attract my sight like a magnet liddat.. ..ZzZzZ boring life.. boring work.. muz find sth to make me motivate to work.. u see... =X aye.. super boring.. i tot that i haf clear all my thoughts well.. forget dat someone clean.. but.. sighx.. i did not.. ...ZzZZz yah la.. go on.. curse me, if u like.. i know i no medicine can cure liao.. haix.. think.. i'm gonna be lonely for the rest of my life.. yup.. i need somemore time to forget dat feeling and abandon dat hope.. hafta carry on wif my life..
I'M CRAZY SOON!!!! GOING TO BE LIKE A MADDIE PROFESSOR SOON!!! INVENTING STUPID USELESS STUFF.. FORMULATING UNNESSARY FORMULAE.. COMING OUT WITH AN "UNDRINKABLE" COFFEE RECIPE!!! WOOO!!!

2005-07-29T21:09:00.000+08:00

todae.. a fucked up day.. went to work at Orchard building late.. kanna kp.. -.- kns.. then lata i was asked to return milk to paragon.. then i push this stupid trolley.. starting frm heeren der.. all the way to paragon.. -.- bet nobody would dare to do dat.. everyone walk pass me.. look at me.. then the cartons of milk.. ....ZzZz WHAT'S WRONG WIF PUSHIN A TROLLEY ALONG ORCHARD RD?!?! lol... sian la.. lata going dwn to sengkang and clean up e store.. leg kinda tired.. eye lid kinda heavy too ...ZzZ falling asleep soon.. -.-" tml still needa wake up early.. boring la.. more and more ppl dun wanna go sentosa liao.. sian la.. this wk not enough rest... fcuk..

2005-07-19T00:00:00.000+08:00

boring lifeeeeeee.... i'm whinning... whinning~~ like a girl now.. BORING!!!!!! NTH TO DO... i think i machiam like a girl now.. go on diet.. .....ZzZzZ imagine i had only 1 lunch todae.. -.-X pathetic huh? going to be SHEN le la..
shen yi qian ye shi ren..
nan.. wei se mo hai chen ta wei shen ne..?
ying wei ta zhuo dao REN zhuo bu dao de shi..
shuo yi ta cai hui jiao zhuo shen..
bored... bored.. if only i know how to drive.. if only i haf a car now.. sighx..
if only this if only that..
i wanna do sth EXTRAORDINARY.. but... wad can i do..? -.-X
nothing..
not sure wad i wanna do..
still cant find e world i belong to..

living in a world where $$ matter most..
ppl can actually betray kins and their life for dat cruel thing..
haix~ if i can be like Bill Gates liddat..
i will walk ard the world.. and donate money to ppl... -.-X
sometimes saw some lau ah ma, lau ah pei..
pick cans and sell.. i wonder how much can they get each day.. -.-"
sometimes juz feel like giving them a 10 dollar note and ask them to rest for a day..
but... i'm not rich... my family also cannot make it sooner or later.. sighx...
if i'm as rich as bill gates.. i would wanna give those hardworking elderly, who roam ard picking cans frm rubbish bins and places, a few hundred or maybe a thousand.. sighx~~
dun u think they are already so old.. still wanna walk here and der.. collecting can..
i feel sad for them.. but.. i'm weak to do anithing.. too weak... sighx..

2005-07-18T14:48:00.000+08:00

it's a boring day for me.. i guess.. there will be a whole week like this preparing for me.. -.-" off for 1 whole wk.. hehe.. siao eh..? dunnoe la.. needa clear some of my negative mood 1st before i wanna work.. sianx.. life sucks.. makes my mood sulk.. o's coming soon.. havan prepare my science and stuffs.. haix~ studying the same thing i did last yr.. kinda regretted.. but wad can i do..? who ask me nvr study science properly.. .....ZzZz i tot i got confidence sure sure can pass science.. in e end.. sian diaox.. cursed...
now.. it's rainning.. feel like going out.. but go where? ..ZzZ alone..? have sth to do.. but.. study.. ... -.-X no mood to work.. let alone study.. .....ZzZz yayaya.. i'm soo lazy.. ...ZzZ well.. ma life isn't great afterall.. bored...

if only i have wings..
i would have travel around the world..
making friends from all around the country..
record their culture into a small small notepad..

if only i have wings..
i would have roam freely around the sky..
flying in the middle of a flock of birds & geese..
i wonder how life would be like this way..

if only, if only... *sigh*
i've only got a brain to imagine..
imaginations have its limit..
humans also have their limitation to life..
so does my english... -.-X

2005-07-17T00:23:00.000+08:00

sighx... life've been always this tough for me.. cant really stand it... borned wif such ugly face.. and such ugly attitude... really dunnoe wad can i say.. i'm someone who's totally 100% ugly.. unfair.. so unfair... how i wish i culd end my life.. but.. i couldn't dare to.. yah.. i'm gutless.. or wadeva.. i been thinking that all these yrs.. how hard does my parents brought me up.. and i juz end it like dat?? nah.. but really cant stand the harsh world outside.. where.. MONEY, CAREER really means sooooooooooo much.. wad money brings power.. wad craps... everyone is greedy.. so am i.. no matter how rich u are.. u'll tell urself.. it's nvr enough.. how rich can we be..? god knows... -.- if 1 guy were to own this planet, earth.. i doubt he'll be even satisfied having earth ONLY.. he might even want jupiter, mars, venus or even the sun... -.-X
well.. didn't know wad to do, wad to say now. afta wad've happened at home todae... and also.. related to dat new girl, i had on mind.. ....zZZZz yah.. i sound soo like a stalker now.. burdden.. how immature can i get... maybe, i juz dun suit any of the girls out der.. i'm juz a peasant in singapore.. i feel soo useless and powerless somehow.. i wanna do sth abt it.. but i dunnoe where to begin wif.. i'm juz too weak to even be a weakling..

2005-07-16T02:33:00.000+08:00

ala... todae.. super hyper.. haha.. i doubt many ppl can stand me.. well.. was late for an hr for work.. coz i tot i was supposed to punch in at 5pm.. instead... it's was at 4pm.. so reach der.. at 5.. late for an hr.. then.. OMG.. saw this grp of girls der.. juz 1 girl caught my attention.. and i mean.. JUST one girl.. dun say i bhb or wad la.. she's looking at me or the menu board behind me.. haha.. =X i admit la.. i was looking at her too la.. hehe.. =P well.. a sweet girl wif a sweet smile.. but.. couldn't find my guts and approach or sth.. WASTED~~ well.. then super hyper todae la.. was super nonsensical afta she left.. sighx~~ now feel like seeing her again.. but.. so late liao.. (but i'm still hyper now, okay?) craps.. cant sleep.. then before she left.. i was like.. BYE BYE.. super loud.. well.. inside heart pain la.. why?? nvr ask no. then.. ....ZzZz coz i dun dare.. burdden.. i'm such a sissy.. -.-X also.. doubt my stupid face can get her no. -.- soo kan phua ugly.. well.. afta dat.. was doing all the stuff needed for closing.. then one of e parnter der wan go toilet.. she dun dare go alone.. then go together.. guess wad.. she cannot tahan.. then run all the way to the toilet.. machiam we like running away.. security guard chase us.. .....ZzZz the compass point guard sucks la.. attitude problem wan.. then the security guard got e walkie talkie.. si bei yaya.. the walkie talkie goes.." there's some starbucks ppl unlocking the door running ard dunnoe where are they heading to.. they juz cant understand simple english.." then i du lan liao la.. was der.. shouting at the guard.. wad dun understand simple english..? dun insult us liddat can..? we juz wanna use the toilet.. cant we? somemore.. it's barely a few mins.. do u hafta insult us.. like we dun understand SIMPLE english.. *didn't know walkie talkie no need press button can already speak liao... LoL..* then the cb guard on the walkie talkie say.. ya right.. LoL.. then stupid la.. the guards der.. fucker sia.. pathetic shit.. i liddat talk to them rudely.. they also lan lan.. stupid........ i think at most starbucks kanna blacklisted by them nia la.. haha... LoL... =X

PS: if anyone frm SJC read this.. pls ask ard WHO WENT TO SB-CM (stabucks compass point) on the friday 15/7/2005 at ard evening.. >.< i regretted not asking her for her no. damnit..

2005-07-12T01:21:00.000+08:00

weEeEe.. 1st time i rode on a bike.. eh.. quite scary at 1st.. but.. afta a while.. super cool.. hahaha.. cool till i almost fall a sleep on e bike.. haha.. anw.. i shall this 1st and the last time..
I'VE TOTALLY GIVEN UP ON DAT GURL NAMED DEBBIE.. okay? soo.. PLS DUN EVEN MENTION HER NAME TO ME AGAIN.. THX... unless u wan me to punch u right in e nose.. juz lemme forget completely..

2005-07-10T00:14:00.000+08:00

hmm.. maybe i guess.. i still needa stick to basketball.. got some unfinished stuff wif it..
hey boy.. u get to be wif her.. dat's ur fortune.. i'm not jealous or wad.. since.. i'm already given up totally w/o a choice.. BUT do cherish her.. =) well, did i heard u say me action..? u dare to say me.. pls dare to admit.. juz bring it to me.. i'm very sensitive to offensive words like dat.. who are u..? i dun gif a damn.. i dun blame u for being angry wif me.. i know i know.. i understand all the shit.. u angry wif me becoz i went der.. so she haf to leave.. soooo....? u wanna critisize me.. pls do it infront of me.. dun do it at the back of me.. only sissy do dat.. come on.. i mean.. are u a boy..? no balls..? wan to critisize ppl.. do it infront of them.. see wad will happen.. if u fit to critisize ppl.. i doubt they will even dare to lay a finger on u.. but if u dun.. FUCK OFF.. and quit being so childish and sissy.. how old are u now..? sec 3... 15? bear this in ur mind, guys talk to guys.. face 2 face.. man on man..
i dare to say it here.. i dare to say it to ur face.. news will travel.. ppl will read ma blog and tell u.. if u know who the hell is him.. ask him to admit.. i'll be waiting...

2005-07-08T12:55:00.000+08:00

Here I am, once again

I’m torn into pieces, can't deny it, can't pretend

Just thought you were the one

Broken up, deep inside

But you won't get to see the tears I cry

Behind these hazel eyes...

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haix.. yaya i copied e chorus of da song.. ............. no words can describe my feelings la.. seeing her.. become liddat.. sianx.. become wad? i also dun wanna describe... it's not the same her anymore.. juz feel dat i've starting to lose my place in this world.. cruel 1.. boring 1.. and also the only 1.. i lost wad i wanted.. i've only the near goals now.. to get into poly.. and haf a diplomate.. i haf no other further goal than dat 1.. i feel dat.. afta i get my diplomate.. = no goals? then do wad.. sigh... living life for the sake of living.. and dying.. and live in another world.. and live again... -.-

2005-07-03T23:34:00.000+08:00

boooooooo... todae.. i went alllll e way to sentosa to collect my islander card ALONE... why?? becoz all of them dunwan go ytd.. lao da needa work then.. very hard to jio ppl out liao.. sighx.. then go der alone lo.. guess wad.. the moment i collected my card... it rains... the sky was sooo fcuking bright lo... still will rain.. dat HEAVY.. si bei sway.. -.-X afta dat.. i went to harbourfront centre to walk 1 whole round.. then i was finding e starbucks store as well.. then saw coffee club, spineli..(or wadeva.. dunnoe how to spell la.. lmao) then guess where starbucks located at?? inside e shopping centre... -.- but still quite busy la.. well.. starbucks is really *$s.... then whole body ached coz of ytd basketball... long time nvr play le.. then played 1 whole evening.. went home with aches here and der... haha.. long tim nvr play.. sighx.. cannot xia lan too much in court.. if not sure tio tok.. cb.. speaking of which..
oie all the ginnas especially males.. who play basketball.. if u're not pro enough.. pls respect ppl who are older than u.. i hate ppl play basketball then gif act cool face.. which in order words, fuck face.. u think u cool izzit? basketball is all abt SKILLS.. not ur FACE.. if u need ur FACE to play bb then u're not any better than FAECES to dat guy especially, i know u yandao.. but pls dun diao me for nth.. then gimme fierce bin.. i'm not scare of u.. anw ur skill.. is juz as lousy as my sec 2 standard only la.. -.- boring act cool freak..

2005-07-02T15:20:00.000+08:00

Booo.. it's me again!! The Super Duper Nonsensical Kid In Da Blog.. hmm.. looks so orh biang.. i change i change..
The Nonsensical Wannabe-Kid In Da Blog.. Yoyoyo~..
hmm.. sound better.. xD
dun mind me la.. i haf a deprieved childhood.. sighx..
some ppl might know.. some ppl wun..
well.. my childhood.. i can describe within 1 sentence.. or 3 words...
wadeva it is.. it's deprieved... -.- [All-Day-Home]
Frm Toys To Television Then Upgrade To CPU.. -.-
i can stay at home for 2 whole months.. and nvr did step out of this room.. -.-
machiam like jail.. -.-
sian.. my childhood "officially" starts when i'm oredi a fully grown man.. cursed...
now.. of coz not.. stay at home and rot.. muz well.. go out and rot..
exposed to the world or reality.. the curel-ness the bitterness and the temptations...
wad i mean by temptations is.. when u see this super duper chio bu.. wif figure like jennifer lopez.. the smile of janet jackson..(that's juz an example.. i dunnoe how will dat lady looks.. haha) the nature of guys.. will think this and dat.. GIRLS, LADIES PLS READ... it's natural for guys lo.. i mean.. guys are "something" stupid.. and greedy.. u hafta understand US..(yah.. i'm a guy..xD ) yah.. u can love somebody.. but u cant make somebody loves u.. this is wad i learnt.. after all dat stupid stupid pain in the chest.. maybe my heart beats too fast or too slow.. -.- dunnoe la.. haha.. dun wanna know..
i know some girls will be loyal to their bf..
well.. guys also do... but it juz depends...
for each gender.. it carrys a limited and i seriously mean limited rare 8% for each gender.. lol..
how u know..? love each other like nobody business.. and think that u cant live w/o him/her..
can liao.. everyone can be LOYAL!! =) whether ni yao.. hai shi bu yao...
that's almost all for my craps..
shall continue nxt time.. if u guys read... u will be like.. WTH.. so long-winded...
most impt. ppl who read.. really are stupid..........
BUT CUTE LO!!.. I LOVE YA GUYS MAN.. wooo~~

2005-06-26T01:13:00.000+08:00

the night nvr dies till the 1st shine of the sun is set on singapore.. *lame* wad english is that??? aye.. sianx la.. life as usual.. living life.. juz becoz to live life.. haix~ dun really hab an actual goal for me to go for it..
feel like sleeping.. but dun wanna sleep now.. stupid...
Abnormal
Behaviour
Child..
haix~ my mind is full of thoughts..
i'm going to lose my mind.. my place.. my worth..
say i'm stressful.. I'm NOT!!!
say i'm slacking.. I'm NOT!!!
lalalalalalalala....
i'm so crazy now....

yah.. sianx... anyway.. juz got a new dvd player.. frm my uncle.. who got 2 dvd players in e first place... -.- lame.. donate to us earlier mah.. we're pooooooooor....
hehe??
yah la.. wan change new hp.. new comp.. no money.. i've to work now to get dat money.. but always i get dat money buy new clothes.. cannot la.. i grow up liao.. needa wear sth i needa wear.. if not lata think i wad... -.- now not only face impt lo.. wad u wear out also impt.. stupid crap right? haha.. perhaps.. that's my POV.. point of view..
now my computer is much better.. =) think.. it still can survive for any 6mths bah.. haha..
tolong tolong ar.. god.. lemme get into poly next yr pls..? if not i really stepping into the future "senselessly" dun let my plan be RUINED!!! >.< NS really ruin a guy's life... but no NS.. it might ruin Singapore... maybe this is fate... -.- ask girls go NS also la.. some of them likes to wear like guys.. kns.. PuI PuI PuI... ask those girls always like to be a guy go NS... -.-X see them act cool.. act shuai.. si bei gao way.. gaaaaaaaaaaaaa Pui.... so unnatural... -.-X

I SHALL ANNOUNCE THAT.. I'm TRULY Damn Anti-"UnNatural Behaviour de Girls" In Order Words.. Girls who-wanna-be Guy.. U All go Implant 1 Thing That All Guys Haf Before U wanna-be a Guy... -.-X

2005-06-09T22:13:00.000+08:00

tonite, a sentimental night it is..

woooo.....

the sound of dat wind.....

yayaya~~ since u been gone...

i cant breathe for the first time...

thank to you... now i get wad i wan....

sorrow... totally bored...

no life... got no life..

a stay-at-home freak, i am...

fuck up, the computer is now...

yoda, i'm speaking like....

nice, dun u think..?

stupid, it is...

2005-06-05T23:28:00.000+08:00

nth much to say abt todae.. tired.. body aching.. chest feels empty.. sianx... think i'm going to be real anti-social soon... or crazy soon..

life sux, lurve hurts, education psycho, money murder..
hoping that i could laid in e darkness peacefully...
or maybe to an island without the so called "temptations"..

time flies...
history will remain the same..
a future which is unclear..
where are we going to start when we know nuts abt it..

humans are always taking things for granted..
they only do really cherish sth is when dat sth they know..
is going to disappear soon..

love..
a word which is hard to be defined fully in just one sentence..
but yet ppl still believe that particular word..

if u wanna be with together wif someone..
be their only closest friends only..
coz..
friendships does last... but relationship don't..

But..............
the difference between the bonds as of friendship and relationship..
is thus, far far far far away frm each other..

[nD.AkA.AnDY Signs Off...
in dat stupid mood again... -.-]

2005-06-02T23:50:00.000+08:00

wooo.. it's sooo late le.... tml still hafta work.. booooo... boring la.. nth to do wan.. even though my work can be fun.. but.. i'm damn tired... how i wish.. can 1 whole month dont work.. but still get paid.. haha... *in my dreams* 2 more days.. 2 more days.. or rather.. 1 1/2 days to sat!!! man.. i'm starting to love sat.. lol.. not becoz of the cartoons on kids central.. but.. going out to the bitch... woops.. beach, i mean.. get cooked under the sun.. arrrgh.. keep having typo now.. like moi newwwww blogskin..? sooo damn kewl... bounded wings.. this shows how's my life was, is, will be... cant fly up high.. weeee.... so tired.. *yawnx* gdnitey to my frenz and pals out there.. hope u guys are enjoying this june holiday.. which doesn't seems like a holiday to moi.. coz i'm still working..
no sch rox.. but boring...

2005-06-01T15:20:00.000+08:00

arr.. boring like hell.... guess wad.. rashes all over my legs.. ytd worst.... -.- all my body covered wif rashes.. damn itchy.. midnight dunnoe wake up how many times to scratch... -.- not going to work.. no $$$ liao... >.<>.< boring~ booooooooooooo...

2005-05-31T12:19:00.000+08:00

dunnoe wad i really want.. dunnoe wad i really need..

i feel like a fool sometimes.. perhaps i'm one..

or maybe i'm still a child in heart..

i'm not sure.. not sure abt this life i'm leading now..

normal yet strange..

no longer the life i want..

cant figure out 2 simple question now..

what i really want?

what i realy need?

no longer a child,

who get satisfied over small things.

dun ask me why, i'm seventeen now..

but i still couldn't decide wad i want..

still don't know wad i really need in life..

i guess i'm still a slacker who doesn't even wanna plan for..

my future..

2005-05-26T01:38:00.000+08:00

WEEeEe... exactly 1mth nvr update moi blog.. i'm back.. back~~ recently juz heard that she pass her a maths exam when onli 3 ppl in her class passed..(she's one of 'em) well.. i guess hardwork really pays off.. hmm, isn't it? arrr.. feel sooo happy for her.. but sad for me.. dissapointed in myself.. why? becoz i'm soo useless.. -.- (didn't passed my a maths for 1 fcuking time before..) that love and effort i put in seems soo redudant.. sighx.. i guess this is destiny.. yah.. guess will hafta wait for my heart 2 die.. how long..? maybe soon.. and i guess i will break dat "redudant" 2yrs promise i made.. all e things i did was.. unnecessary[forgot how to spell, duhx -.-]
well Humph!!! life's sooo goood but boring without sch.. miss all e friends in sch.. miss the joy and laughter we had afta making teachers angry.. laugh at their behaviour.. arrr... miss that.. arr miss lots of things happening.. especially last yr.. yah.. especially that specific event that makes my handphone bill rise.. and my auntie pay not knowing it... haha.. yah.. dat event really change my life for dat yr.. thx a million to dat person, who gave me every single precious of his/her messages.. those were the happiest times in my life..

2005-04-26T17:25:00.000+08:00

dun think also useless.. at night dream.. haix... let's just take this morning for an example.. before i even WOKE up.. i dreamt of her.. blah-blah-blah... content.. not very impt. sighx.. juz spending each day for the sake of spending it.. i miss sch... haix~ wad's blog for man..? ....ZzZZzZ i still haf dat feeling for her.. is that good or bad..? dunnoe.... bet everyone read this.. will go.. "Andy.. U Suck.. She's Pratically Haf No Interest For U.." yah.. i know.. my brain says 1 thing.. my heart says the other.. similiar as being as a liar.. no face to face her as well.. why??? becoz........... i'll continue some other days.. damn no mood to continue MY FREAKING CRAPS... My Life Sucks To The Max Core...

2005-04-22T18:00:00.000+08:00

no use, andy.. no use, andy... no use, andy... dun think abt her, andy.. nooooo... dun...... ........ZzZZzZZzzZz
Andy is Insane Now.................................................................................................................

2005-03-19T02:16:00.000+08:00

To Her(If She Reads My Crappy Blog):
it's true that i'm tired.. tired.. both emotionally and physically depleted.. what can i do..? i'm weak to do anithing.. i felt that.. i juz dropped into e middle of the ocean.. dunnoe which way is the ocean bed.. and which way is to the surface.. gasping for air.. struggling underwater.. clinging onto nothing.. cant see clearly in e water..
tired.. i am.. Neither do i wan to continue the chase.. nor do i wan to gif u up.. i juz pratically waiting.. waiting for u to be ready.. yah.. i'm doing it everyday.. to be reminded of u everyday.. i wore dat ear stud.. that everyone's "buey song" abt..
this is all i can do.. i really need u alot... really love u alot.. i juz hope 1 day.. dat u really know how much u meant to me... i wish dat day comes as soon as possible
-nD.AkA.AnDY-

2005-03-17T11:50:00.000+08:00

True

I won't talk
I won't breathe
I won't move till you finally see
That you belong with me

You might think I don't look
But deep inside the corner of my mind
I'm attatched to you
mmmm

I'm weak, it's true
Cause I'm afraid to know the answer
Do you want me too?
Cause my heart keeps falling faster

[Chorus]
I've waited all my life to cross this line
To the only thing that's true
So I will not hide
It's time to try anything to be with you
All my life I've waited
This is true

You don't know what you do
Everytime you walk into the room
I'm afraid to move

I'm weak, it's true
I'm just scared to know the ending
Do you see me too?
Do you even know you met me?

[Chorus]
I've waited all my life to cross this line
To the only thing thats true
So I will not hide
It's time to try anything to be with you
All my life I've waited
This is true

I know when I go
I'll be on my way to you
The way that's true

[Chorus]
I've waited all my life to cross this line
To the only thing thats true
So I will not hide
It's time to try anything to be with you
All my life I've waited
This is true

2005-03-14T15:00:00.000+08:00

hmmmmm..... todae.. wad shuld i write leh... very sian.. todae shuldn't wake up so early.. woke up at 12noon.. spent 3 hrs zhou bo.. ....ZzZzZZzZzz computer.. online.. nth to do.. sianx... BORING!!!!! >.< I miss her alot.. ~>.<~

2005-03-13T16:09:00.000+08:00

hmm.. i knew alot of things abt her lately in sch.. sighx.. how i wish i knew nth abt those things.. perhaps maybe.. i'm alot happier... =/ living in e shadow.. it's very heartbreaking... juz feel dat.. my heart stopped for a moment.. dunnoe wad to do.. dun wan to do anything... except to tear away my face.. and juz change a new face... a new look.. and maybe buy a new brain.. throw away this old brain.. then my heart wun haf to beat soooo fugging fast to produce enuff blood for my this old brain... the world is spinning and I'm still living... i feel like ending it all... mi no guts.. hum ji... coz no one pei me end it... sianx.. strugggggggling in this pathetic cruel world... i feel dat.. i'm all alone.. all alone... nobody will understand me.. NOBODY... totally indifferent to this world.. guess shuld prepare all those work.. e.g applying a place in woodbridge for myself.. hope they take me in..... pathetically mad... no medicine could CURE ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i juz wanna blast music to my ear till i break... 1 world.. 1 andy.. 1 girl..

2005-03-11T17:09:00.000+08:00

sianzzzz............. not in e right mood... lata still needa work.. and smile.... ....ZzZZ how i wish i can use all those vuglarities and curse till my lung fly out of my mouth.. i wanna SCCCCCREEEEEAAAAM OUTTTT LOOOOOUDDDDDDDD.......... ARRRRRRRRRRRRRR................ ........ZzZzZ boring life.. boring lifestyle.. boring childhood.. boring guy.. boring computer.. boring net.. weeeeeeee.......... i hate being me.. weeeeeee......... boring!!!!!

2005-03-08T15:58:00.000+08:00

i hope u dance... i hope u talk to me.. i feel so upset now.. man.. how i wish i juz quit dat job.. but then.. got no excuse to quit.. somemore.. been recommended in.. liddat work for 2+ mnths gif up.. abit pai seh.. but i really very sick and tired of e service thingy.. needa smile when u're sad.. need greet when i dun greet ppl.. i juz dun feel like opening my mouth der.. and juz.. omg.. i feel like dying.. but...... haix.. going thru all this.. who know how i am doing.. i'm not DOING WELL.. NOT DOING GOOD... juz got dat fucked up result.. i dun feel like working.. i juz wanna slack all the way le.. sighx.. i'm quite tired of this lonesome life.. nth to do.. nth to do.. and everything is juz not in place for me... hafta handle responsibilities like an adult now..
no longer a kid.. not yet an adult..

2005-03-07T13:33:00.000+08:00

sigh.. ytd.. was my worst day of all my life.. more worse than wadeva.. i kanna lectured by my manager.. frm small things to big things.. like.. kicking the door of a company cab.. -.- dat time wanted to like let the cab go off faster.. then i no hand to close door.. so use my leg la.... duhx.. liddat also tio lectured.. then worst of all.. i got "snapshot".. made the store service standards drop to 70%.. well.. cause i nvr do some basic expectations.. then kanna it.. sian.. kanna lecture for 45+mins.. sigh... if only i can talk to her... i wun feel soooo upset now..

2005-03-05T03:04:00.000+08:00

i guess.. this blog.. is nth but craps... but i guess.. i hafta SCREAM OUT MY TRUE FEELINGS HERE.. I HATE THE CONCEPTS OF "BOTTLING UP IN ONE'S HEART"

i'm feel empty right now.. why? becauz.. i've lost wif contact wif someone i really put in alot of hearts into.. i guess this wound of mine.. time wun do the job... she's e only 1 i want.. e only 1 i need... i'm such a mofo.. wif a stupid disgusting face.. and a disgusting results.. a screwed up guy wif no future.. doubt she'll ever fall for me.. guess, my dream will nvr come true..

looking so desperate... i mean.. desperate for dat someone, but not desperate for GIRLS.. who cares abt steadying.. who cares abt having relation.. if it's not wif her.. cant forget her.. she's like my life.. my purpose to live... sigh...

like wad my mom said.. "chi qing de ren.. yong yuan dou shi jiu ben de ren.." yah... wad she said is true.. but she doesn't know that.. she's talking abt her son as well...

nD.AkA.AnDY [forever disgusting, forever hopeless & forever prideless]

blah blah

2005-02-27T15:12:00.000+08:00

today is sunday.. SUNday.. but i see no SUN here.. clouds... is all i saw.. it going to rain for sure.. sighx.. tml needa take result le.. i dunnoe how.. dunnoe wad to do.. let's juz face up to reality.. tml is a day to see Andy Cry.. =) now kinda feel excited.. but.. abit sad also.. coz.. everything has a beginning, has an end.. the times i had smsed wif her.. think it has oredi ended long ago.. those are e sweetest moment in my life.. well.. finally i didn't waste my 1 yr.. i longed for it though.. but ppl say it's very unfair for her.. haix.. reality ish cruel.. tis world is CRUEL!!!! no money = die.. sighx.. how i wish i am as rich as bill gates.. sighx.. i will be very willing to do donations.. haix~~ but.. i'm not rich as him..
everytime i see ur face.. everytime u look my way.. it's like it all falls into place.. where everything feels right..everytime i hear ur name.. everytime i feel the same.. it's like it all falls into place.. where everything feels right..ever since u walked away.. left my life in disaray.

2005-02-21T15:26:00.000+08:00

i'm bored stiff... haix..
everytime see ur face.. everytime u look my way.. it's like it all falls into place.. where everything feels right..
everytime i hear ur name.. everytime i feel the same.. it's like it all falls into place.. where everything feels right..
ever since u walked away.. left my life in disaray..
boring life... HAIX!! darn it.. work and work.. seldom play now.. no mood to even do anything esle... haix.. cursed life.. dunnoe wad to do now.. confuseddddd...... no wan to gif her up.. but..... sighx.. i'm a terrible failure.. my work suxs.. my love life suxs.. my life totally suxs.. and it suck biggggie time.. BOOOOOOO!!!
u guys may think that she's juz an ordinary girl.. u guys are juz wrong wrong wrong.. even so.. she meant every lil thing to me.. it's harder than before for me to gif up now.. i've fall deeper and.. most importantly.. I AM A STUBBORN GUY! sigh...

2005-02-20T20:07:00.000+08:00

tired me.. still hafta work tml.. damn it sia.. f f f f f f........ not enuff sleep.. not enuff care and comfort.. like a stupid guy in e city.. looking or talking abt the IMPOSSIBLE... Coffee W/o Milk Is Juz Like Me W/o Her... UrGh!!! No Milk In Coffee.. No Latte, No Cappuccino, No Mocha, No Caramel Macchiato... Juz Black Coffee... No Coffee In Milk.. Is Juz Milk... M.I.L.K.!! haix.. sad la.. no mood take results also.. i'm juz nobody in her eyes.. juz some crappy, lusty, desperate, stupid-looking guy.. haix... running low on both physical and emotional strength.. HAIX!! DAMN IT!! #@%#$%^#$%^$&^%*&^(&*(& Cursed life of mine..

2005-02-15T16:11:00.000+08:00

ytd.. was a super duper boring day for me.. slack tll 1730hr.. then go work.. work and work.. VALENTINE'S DAY still needa work.. sianx....... not happie now.. not not happie.. but very boring.. ...ZzZZzzZz keep thinking of her.... nth esle.. other than her.. a bit headache liao.. but still thinking of her... brain like goin' to xlpode soon.. feel like dying.. UrGH!!!! cannnt.. get... a... grip... on... my... life......

2005-02-13T01:01:00.000+08:00

YaY~!! Bought BoA Best of Soul.. ShooOoOo Nice.. every BoA's fan muz get it sia.. if not very wasted.. but another thing troubling me.. sighx.. days without debbie.. sighx.. how am i going to live this painful time alone.. i'm like living my life w/o oxygen.. [sounds stupid?] seriously.. i'm like suffocating.. e feeling of it is here.. maybe my heart really ran out of air.. not sure.. -.-X even though it's like 4+ days nvr saw her le.. but.. haix.. dunnoe why my mind ish filled with thousand of thoughts of her.. e swt smile.. e lovely eyes.. e nice gurlz..
if u are a hopeless goner flunker.. then i'll be a realtime total hopeless useless failure...
I cant live without someone.. dat someone somewhere out there, named Debbie...
[I Still Love Her The Way I Did Last Year.. Nothing can Change The Fact]
-nD.AkA.AnDY-

2005-02-04T01:02:00.000+08:00

sigh.. todae went to sch.. haha.. be "nicole's cake delivery boy"... -.-X well.. also wanna see her(Debbie) la.. but reach there.. like dunnoe why.. dun see maybe i will feel better.. so nvr go purposely go find her.. so.. liddat went there.. pass e cake.. then dunnoe wad to do liao.. teacher all go meeting.. then yup.. kinda miss her la.. but cant let her see my stupid hair now.. haha.. i admit.. it's disgusting.. i lazy go cut sia.. then i running low on cash.. save abit lo.. hair can dun cut de.. but rice cannot dun eat.. lol.. then evening.. saw her online.. tried to msg her.. but she seems to no avail.. maybe dao-ing me.. haix.. coz she changed her nick.. but nvr reply me.. haix.. maybe she hate my presence..? maybe.... well.. i've been a naughty, stubborn, naive & irritaing child to her.. =/ aye meaning.. i keep disturbing her lo.. i feel abit guilty la.. but I JUZ WANNA CHEER HER UP SIA... see her so busy wif dunnoe wad things.. it hurts me lo.. tell her also useless.. sigh.. forget it.. in life.. once u made a wrong decision.. u cant really turn back.. if ya wanna turnback.. u waste time and $$$.. loads of them.. well if this hurts u.. i will still say.. i still love u the way i did last yr.. nutthing can change my true feelings to u.. unless u go be chao ah lian lo.. then i really bwg.. I JUZ LOVE YOU LOTS LOTS LOTS... I DUNNOE WHY I STILL LOVE U LOTS LOTS LOTS.. WHEN U DAO ME LOTS LOTS LOTS... I Love You, My Dearest..

2005-02-03T01:07:00.000+08:00

sian.. another day i stayed at home again.. well.. todae abt 1.55pm got a phone call frm my brother.. donavan.. he say debbie same train wif him.. haiyo.. so envy him.. how i wish i was there.. >.< kinda miss her lo.. nvm nvm.. cny celebration go dwn sch.. =D hope i can buy some clothes on 7th feb.. getting my pay on 7th lo.. also dunnoe will get it anot.. well, anyway.. wish u guys here lunar new yr 1st.. =D haax.. well.. NEW SKIN For a new year!! but not a new girl.. =D o's results in another 22 days.. 3 weeks and 1 day to go.. haix.. dunnoe wad to say la.. hope everyone can get good aggregate.. and also me.. =D

new blog skin nehx...

2005-02-02T01:42:00.000+08:00

siao siao.. no la.. got time mah.. so look for some nice skin to put lo.. isn't this skin sweet.. awww... how i wish i'm the boy.. and she's the girl.. lemme peck on her cheek.. haha.. *dreaming* anyway.. a few more weeks to o's results.. hope i can get good aggregate.. kinda excited lo.. haha.. well, i miss her liao.. her eyes, her smile and her hair.. gd luck, pals..

O lvl finish le.. graduating soon...

2004-11-23T16:37:00.000+08:00

hmm.... very bored.. mmmmm..... boring...... mmmm.... nth to do.... *GrUmBlE*... sad ar sad ar... how to stay happy... happy..~~~ mmmmmmm..... really very bored... ......mmmmm..... humph...... gonna graduate le.. hmmmmmm... *gRuMbLE* can see her in sch no more le... mmmmmm.... *sObx* "cant believe that i'm a fool again.. i tot this love will nvr ends.. how was i to know.. when u nvr told me...." *sInG SiNg sInG* blah blah blahx... "sick" and tired liao.. blah blah blahz... i'm sho ke lian... true sia.. sad ppl.. are always those ugly and poor ppl.. onli rich and good-looking ppl will be happy.. haix~ borned wif a face.. an ugly 1.. not to mention.. i'm poor also... sad ar.. even though o lvl finish liao.. can enjoy liao.. heart still gua zhe ta nan yi ge siao rong.. *sing AgAiN* "wheN I wAnnA SeE uR PicTurE, AlL i HAfTa Do Is ClOsE My EyeS" i'm a boring plain lad.. stayed at home quite long le.. got go out.. went out get my stupid injection done.. my arm still kinda ache abit.. haiz.. not sick la.. juz.. wanna get immune to some stupid viruses out of singapore.. dun wanna import any of them back to singapore.. feel sleepy.. but couldn't sleep... dunnoe why.. haiyo.. this stupid feeling again.. xiang si~ bin.. yup.. miss her.. very much.. whenever i zhuo bo.. will think of her sia.. wonder who's she's thinking.. maybe 1 blank mind.. -.-" or think of some other much more yandao guys... haiz~ gonna die in e name of boredom.. stupid...................... arrrrrrrrrr.......!!!!!!!!! *YiU sInGs* "SOMEBODY SAVE ME~~"
The Wound On The Skin Can Be Easily Treated With Antiseptic Cream... But The Wound Inside The Heart.... Can Only Be Treated With 1 Medicine.. And That is Someone Who You Love.. Who You Care... Who You Really Wanna Be With.. And Of Coz.. That's The Hardest Medicine To Prepare.. Therefore.. The Wound Inside The Heart.. Is The Hardest To Cure, Not Even Doctors Can Cure Them...
-nD.AkA.AnDY-

Dunnoe Why Is She Acting Like This To Me.. What I've Done, Aren't Much Yet..? Someone Fill Me In.. Pls?

2004-11-09T23:09:00.000+08:00

yah.. a fine day.. but not anymore after that..
it juz begin off at 7.35am.. we are 5mins late.. then got special treatment.. bag checking.. hp got camera.. almost kanna confiscated.. jamil.. dat farker.. as usual.. who did this checking.. kinda stupid.. put ur hp in front of u.. and then he proceed to other peeps.. when i kanna caught.. somehow, someone or something juz struck my mind.. if my hp kanna confiscated.. then how am i going to msg her.. yup.. this juz came into my mind.. knowing.. there's too many ppl.. he surely wun be able to know who haf been caught.. somehow.. i gut out all my courage.. and decided to take a risk.. by putting my hp back into the bag.. afta getting caught.. if i kanna caught.. at most dun take exam.. and call parents down.. or call police down.. accuse me of stealing lo.. i juz dun wanna get my hp confiscated.. i wanna msg her.. sigh.. of coz.. i nvr kanna caught.. then afta exam.. msg her.. ask her how's she doing.. but no reply.. nvm.. then evening.. went out play bb.. then i msg her again... yet.. no reply.. then 10pm liao.. if she nvr reply.. i also wun expect her to reply afta 10.. she needs her beautiful undisturbed sleep.. maybe she grew bored on me le.. then heck abt replying me.. i dunnoe wad's the reason.. but i dun think she is this kind of gurl..
sigh.. then alone in e house now.. yah.. now.. i'm alone.. keep thinking.. why she treat me like some stranger.. who'll be going to do something bad to her.. why is she getting more and more secretive to me..? i went thru all dat trouble juz to "smuggle" my phone out so i can msg her.. but.... i nvr get a reply.. i nvr... u'll nvr know how am i feeling when i took my phone back.. i feel guilty.. coz.. i'm the onli 1.. who took my phone back..
My Phone.. Shuld Be Confiscated For Good.. I Wun Be Able To Sms Her.. So I Wun Disturb Her.. Lessen My Pain also.. Freak.. I Feel So Crappy Now.. But I Cant Turn To Her.. Hell..Dun U Guys Think.. I'm Like A Sinner..? A Pure Sinner.. And I'm A Pure Sinner.. Who Kept Failing In Every Single Thing..
A Life W/o Goals And Dreams.. How Terrible.. Tsk.. I Onli Had 1 Goal And 1 Dream.. Both Are Almost E Same.. To Be By Her Side.. If U Ask Me To Gif It Up.. Then That Makes Me Someone W/o Goal And Dream.. I Guess I Shuld Really Juz End My Life Then..

Updating For The Sake Of Updating..

2004-10-25T13:13:00.000+08:00

sigh... life juz suxs.. whole week.. i spent most of my time at HOME!! doing nothing..mind is occupied by someone... someone... who meant soooo much to me.. but i dun exist inside her mind.. i'm so stupid.. dun ya think.. fancy clinging onto a 'one-sided love' haiz... i'm so like a dumbass... my mind.. is always asking... where is she now.. what is she doing now.. how is she now.. so what if i know... life is juz so unfair.. cruel... i'm juz another fool to her.. trying to woo her.. that's all.. i'm feeling so foolish.. but i juz cant bring myself to a stop... life maybe better for me now.. if there wasn't any board which needs to tie a TIE...... to add on to their uniform.. and make them look more ATTRACTIVE to me.. and caught my ATTENTION on that very sweet-looking girl... if time could rewind... i juz wanna rewind to the very 1st day of my sec3 life... if i can fast forward time... i wanna forward to 2 yrs later... future... which we cannot predict wad will happen... many ppl will walk pass us.. and gradually.. i MAY forget dat sweet-looking girl wif the tie round her neck.. for now.. i juz wish i wun forget her... and I DUN WANNA FORGET her... she's the 1st girl.. i actually tried so hard to win... but... i guess i failed.. i oredi failed.. i really wanna try it again.. after 2 yrs.. i dun wanna get defeated so easily... i juz wanna see her smile... yah i really do... i doubt i will get a chance in future... sigh..
- nD.AkA.AnDY-

Debbie.. You're My Sunshine... >.<

2004-10-12T17:36:00.000+08:00

Sigh... I Got A Stupid Owe Beating Face... How To Woo 1 Sweet And Adorable De Gurl.. Haiz~ Dunnoe La.. I Feel A Bit Si Bai Sia... Everything I Do.. Only Got 1 Word To Describe... LAN!! Terrible... Pengz.. My Study..? LAN!! My Basketball Neh..? LAN!! My Tactic Wooing Her Ler...? Also LAN!! Even My Sleeping.. Also LAN!! Will Drool De.. Haha... I'm Such A Terrible Guy.. Who Will Ai Shan Me... Haha... Now If Got People Want.. I Say "IF........." I Also Not Interested... Haha.. Mi Only Interested On A Gurl.. Named 'Debbie Neo'.. Aye.. Guess I Dun Need To Elaborate Who Izzit... Heeeex... =P Bleahz.. Pai Seh Ar... My Mouth Always Her Her Her De.. Haha.. Dun Blame Me Lo.. Aiya... Todae... ....ZzZZzz She Sit On A Seat Alone.. Not Really Alone.. With A Qoo Can.. LoL... -.-" Bleahz.. Maybe I Cant Even Match Up To A Qoo Can.. Or Maybe She Prefer To Sit With A Qoo Can Than Me.. Haha... Joking Hoh... Dun Tell Debbie.. =D Haiyo... A Bit Envy The Who And The Who Sit Together Then Alight At The Stop "Opposite Ponggol Park" *HiNT hInT* Then The Who Can Send The Who Home.. Me Nehx.. Haiz~ Give Into Her Nohx.. Mian Qiang Shi Mei You Xi Fu De.. But... Haha... Nvm.. Then Tried To Talk To Her On Bus For A While.. Juz A While.. I Ask Question.. She Nod And Shake Head... -.-X *PiAng* [HiT ForEHeaD] Bleahz... Aye.. Try To Be Optimistic Lo... She's Shy...? Dunnoe Ler.. Haiz.. Dunnoe Wad The Reason Behind... This Thurs.. Maybe Is The Last Day I Can See Her In School Uniform And A "SC" Tie With A "SC" Collar Badge Noh.. Dunnoe When Will Be The Next I Can See Her In Guides' Uniform!!! LoL.. Me A Bit Tiko Hoh..? Aye.. Wadeva She Wear Also Will Look Good De La.. Juz That Mi Got No Chance To See It.. Sigh...

PS: Debbie Dun Nod And Shake Head Next Time La.. Speak A Little Mah... I Can Count How Many Words U Spoke To Me Noh... Maybe Less Than 35Words Ar.. In A Year... -.-"

You Are My Sunshine
My only sunshine.
You make me happy
When skies are grey.
You'll never know, dear,
How much I love you.
Please don't take my sunshine away

The other nite, dear,
As I lay sleeping I dreamed I held you in my arms.
When I awoke, dear,
I was mistaken
And I hung my head and cried.

I'll always love you
And make you happy
If you will only say the same
But if you leave me
To love another
You'll ****** it all some day;

You told me once, dear
You really loved me
And no one else could come between
But now you've left me
And love another
You have shattered all my dreams.

-AnDY.AkA.nD-

Sigh... Last Few More Days...

2004-10-09T22:37:00.000+08:00

sigh.. last few more days for me to see her.... i wun know when i'll be going to see her next time in future... i really wanna see her next time in future.. when we both are matured and hopefully i'm finacially-supported.. and also she's single... i'm afraid.. afta this few days.. i may not get a chance to see her in future... she's the first gurl.. who can make me feel soooo sad... and sooo happy... when i'm happy.. i'm very very happy.. u guys will know... :) and when i'm sad.. i'll be very very very sad... peeps ard me.. will know.... tis few more days.. could be the end.... sigh... all i want now.. is to marry her.. and be by her side... haha.. u all can say it's a dream.. an impossible dream for now... but seriously.. i want to do this... i wanna pamper her... i wan to see her smile... i wanna see her smile stays... stays for as long as possible... to me... her smiles is like the sunshine after a heavy rain... and her silky hair runs down like the rainbow in the sky... even though she claims that she dun like to be in G.G uniform... but.... i juz love to see her in the uniform... makes her cute.. a sweet girl like her.. needs no addition make-ups... her smile will make her very very very beautiful... she walks so elegantly... likes a queen..? o.O slow... but full of confidence... the way she do things... looks kinda serious... all this juz makes me grew feeling to her... soon... i found a reason to live.. and the change for the better..? O.o did i change?? not sure... sigh.. back to e topic.. few more days.. and i will not be able to see her in sch this oftenly le.. sad..? of coz i am... if i were to get into poly... i dun think i will be able to forget her.. everytime.. in fact... i also dun wan.. any other gurls... sigh... debbie.. dun ask me to find someone better..... wo bu yao!!! i'm a stubborn boy... or man... i'm very stubborn de... :) i wun change my mind that easily as well.. even though i'm indecisive.. haha... erm.. how i wish.. u remembered my birthday.. but i dun expect it... if u gif a a pressie... i will be of coz... be like an angel.. flying w/o wings.. :P 5 more days to my birthday... :D

Am I Really Angry With Her...?

2004-10-08T15:23:00.000+08:00

i Dunch Know... i really dunnoe... i'm so angry... becoz i'm so useless.. she dao me.. i can do nth.. i dunnoe why... i'm so useless... i'm like nobody to her as well.. i'm juz like another fool.. who falls for her.. this is how i feel... i'm feeling inferior... i never felt this sad before... i never did... 16yrs going to pass... this yr.. gonna end 1 more week... i can only get to see her 5 days? or maybe less than that... i dunnoe why... i'm very very very very sad now... i'm so confused... sigh... this yr.. i'll be celebrating my birthday sadly... even though my birthday is reaching.. i am not excited... i am not... this yr.. i'm seriously not in the mood to celebrate.. i'm so sad.... sigh... i'm angry becoz i'm.... sigh... i also dunnoe wad am i angry at.. haiz... cant i accompany home as a frenz?? juz becoz i'm a different gender.. do i need to be her stead... so i can accompany?? as if she wans me to be her stead... obviously.. i'm sad becoz of this.. i tried to gif in... when she said dat.. when i wanna alight the bus... i went to her and say bye to her... she treats me like invisible... sigh... i'm so sad now.. BLOODY SAD.... no words can describe my feelings.. how i wish now.. that someone can stab me wif a knife at my back... and i die without pain... pain....? haha..... the pain inside my bottom of my heart is so pain.... lovesick...? hello~~ i'm not... heartsick...? hell no... my heart juz bleeding... bleeding hard.. sometimes i feel so regretted... for loving her... sometimes... it really hurts me.... intolerable pain is inside me... sigh...

Sad Dae

2004-09-25T17:14:00.000+08:00

todae.. even though is a happy day to start off.. but i ended it a sad 1 right after ard 1.30p.m. i tried to call her hp.. to ask her.. whether i can accompany go home anot.. but i cant reach her.. i tried to call 4 -5 times.. but.. i juz cant reach her.. sigh.. so i decided to gif her a msg... upon awaiting for her reply.. i sat under the block which is opposite of the sch.. wait and wait and wait.. patiently and lonely.. she suddenly appeared.. with her frenz.. then i juz walk to the bus stop.. walked half-way.. i turned my head.. she gone the other way.. guessed she saw me.. and tried to avoid walking the same way i do... sadly.. i also saw her.. crossing the road.. without caution.. then i smsed her.. nvm abt it.. and asked her to cross the road nxt time carefully.. tsk tsk.. she nvr reply.. i was really really very upset then.. sat 62 all the way to the loop.. and back to the interchange.. thinking abt things.. sigh.. i felt angry.. and i felt sorrow.. my brain keep trying to ask me to stop bothering abt her.. and juz forget abt her.. but.. my heart.. is the one which is trying to stop me.. from forgetting her.. 2 important organs.. were like fighting a war.. like the north and south korea.. it's very painful.. and i mean.. VERY...! why do i still love her.. after she gave me all this pain..? why??? sometimes, she juz brought me happiness... which is juz short but sweet.. but the pain... is so unbearable.. but why i still love her so much..? some of u may think.. i'm using my mouth juz to tok cock.. say how much i love her.. how deeply i loved her.. how dearly is she to me.. i am not.. kay..? i waited todae.. another 3hrs.. and this is the 3rd time.. after knowing i failed for the 1st and 2nd time.. and know.. wad'll come next.. despite all this.. i still waited.. i am so foolish.. i'm also been treated like a fool.. this is how i feel.. i felt useless to her as well.. sigh.. life.. it juz suxs.. BIG TIME...
-I'm Juz Plain Sad Now-

a Beaut|ful daE~

2004-09-22T20:09:00.000+08:00

heeeex... todae is a Beautful daE~~ why nehx? early morning.. damn sway.. lol.. i managed to got to the bus de enterance.. then the door close.. the driver drove off.. then make me miss the bus which she boarded.. pengz.. then wait lo.. sian sia.. down der.. a bit bu shuang also.. lol.. nvm.. todae, her recess i get to talked to her lor.. aiya.. can sae me a bit thick skin.. lol.. she alone.. then i appoarch her.. haiyo.. before that.. was her pe lesson.. then mi prelim. mah.. recess is from 10-11.. then saw her pe from 10-10.30 she was "playing" captain ball.. lol.. she walk here and der.. then like refregee liddat.. but she got play la.. then accidentally.. the ball hit onto her face or eye ar.. then think got crashed onto someone.. haiz~ then u know lo... my xin break into 2.. but then.. tried to think that.. accident happens during sports.. juz try to be optimistic la.. haiye.. actually wanna rush to her de.. but then her pe teacher aka mr stephen tan down der.. he knows me very well.. coz last yr.. i keep misbehaving durin' his pe lesson.. lol.. then always kanna punish.. also can say.. ish a form of trainning fitness.. lol.. push-ups i always do wan lo.. last time more strong.. long nvr train le.. become weak weak le.. haiz~ coming back to the topic.. stupid ball.. hit onto her face.. if the ball land on my hand.. i surely puncture the ball.. UrGH~~~ lol... :X prelim. i dun care much.. i oni care abt her end of year exam.. lol.. li hai hoh? pengz.. li hai my head... -.-" concentrate on sth else kinda redudant.. lol.. pengz~ wan to cry liao la.. then talked to her.. got ask her abt her eye la.. she say it's fine.. okie la.. fine.. but i still wanna sayang her lo.. but i didn't get a chance.. coz.. she queueing up to buy drinks.. then the queue is filled wif a lots of guys.. then she dun dare to step in.. she almost kanna knock by a guy.. luckily i down der.. :X the 2 sec 2 guys pushing ard.. then i ma chiam very angry.. anyhow pull 1 guy and push him outta the queue.. then.. i move in.. -.-" shuld haf make way for her.. moi darling..(but i'm not hers >.<) lol.. dunnoe she got kan dao anot.. a bit uncivilised liddat lo.. offered to help her buy drinks.. yet.. she say nvm.. then my frenz behind her.. down der.. a bit bu gan yuan.. coz i always dao him when he ask me to buy drinks for him.. but i offered to help debbie.. lol.. then aiya.. help lo.. haiz~ then her recess over le.. i also la.. lol.. 11 start exam.. me wait for her to go back class.. then went to test kinda late.. haha.. nvm la.. dun care.. anyway.. i also do finish the whole paper.. haiz~ then she neber reply mi sms.. neber come online.. think either she's busy or dunnoe wad la.. dun wanna harass her.. then nth to do.. write 1 entry lo.. kkk... all i wanna to do now.. is to sayang her.. but.. i dunnoe whether i will get a chance to do so anot.. coz i'm not confident enuff.. i only scare afta waiting for 2 yrs.. then u know.. haiz~ then i will sing "5566 - boyfriend"... haiz~ then at dat time.. i may be name...the "Lord Of Sorrow"..
- ANDY = Andy Needs Debbie Yearningly -
hehehhe... :P

Cuppy Cake Song~~~

2004-09-18T23:06:00.000+08:00

You're My Honey Bunch Sugar Plum, Pumby Umby Umpkin, You're My Sweetie-Pie~ You're My Cuppycake Gumdrop, Snookum Snookum, You're The Apple Of My Eye.. And I Love You And I Want U To Know That I Always Be Right Here And I Love To Sing This Song To You.. Because You Are So Dear~
(here are the lyrics.. if u wan the song.. come find me.. and ask me for it POLITELY.... lol...)
short and sweet and cute song sang by a cute little character.. strawberry shortcake~ wEEEEeeee~ pls.. i'm not girly.. i juz love her voice.. haha.. :P todae.. a day.. which she stayed up so late to do some hwk.. -.-" lol.. rather project... think she was trying to do last min.. like me~~ lol.. folio havan do finish.. todae sat.. mon needa pass up for marking.. still down here shake leg lor.. haha.. pro mah? shen mah? but.. she's a girl ler.. sleep is very important to a ger de neh.. haiz~ mi cannot help her.. a bit.. ....ZzZz u know how i feel... i dun mind if she gives me all the work to do.. and she go sleep.. i really dun mind.. call mi stupid or wad.. i dun mind.. haha.. nvm... anyway.. who wants that cute song.. ask me POLITELY... if not i DAO u... dun blame me for that.. :P
Energetic During The Night.. But Sleepy During The Day..
-AnDY.AkA.nD-

She Willl~~~ Be Loved...... By Me..... =P

2004-09-11T20:21:00.000+08:00

sho boring... so write another entry... tsk tsk... very sian.. then got a lot of work to do.. then dun feel like doing.. pengz.. ytd.. i dreamt abt her again.. haha.. also nth much... oni dream of her walking pass me nia.. haha... dunnoe la.. sleep also can dream... awake is like thinking of her.. liddat 24/7 missing her liao lor..i started to believe in sth... let her be.. if she's yours.. eventually she'll comes back to u.. haiye.. believe oni.. my heart still shi bu de.. dun understand.. i'm soo.. soft-hearted.. dun u guys tink so..? lol.. where to find soft-hearted de guys... here lor..~~ lol.. :P juz now watch channel U.. saw william hung!! then he be judge.. lol.. an indecisive 1... keep saying.. i'm not sure.. i'm not sure.. lmao.. then his reaction si bei cute ar.. muz ask him become my mentor.. haha.. then i will haf his cuteness.. haiz.. kinda sian lor.. hehe.. since she's online le.. lemme chat wif her le~~ WeEeEEeEE~~ :P
-AnDY.AkA.nD-

SiGhx..

2004-09-09T19:09:00.000+08:00

sighx... wanted to sms her.. but.. i juz couldn't find anything to sms... my heart is dying to sms.. but i know.. there's only a 50% chance she will reply.. i dun wan to disappoint myself again.. to msg her.. and get no reply.. haiz.. it's also a clearcut that she's avoiding all my call to her... i juz kept on trying.. and kept on disappoint myself... but if i really called her.. what am i going to say? how many months i smsed her le...? it's like me.. interviewing someone.. i always start by asking.. and she keep on answering.. but sometimes.. she ask me question.. still vividly remembered she ask me sth very shocking.. needless to say.. i didn't even need to be prepared.. juz answer.. honestly.. maybe becuz of that.. she started to grew further away from me.. but haf to tell her.. dat's all secondary 1 issue... she the 1st girl i ever tried to chase after.. but.. it doesn't work.. how i wish.. i was like as carefree as last yr.. no girls to think of.. nothing much to bother and care.. sec 4.. is one of my most miserable yr i could have experienced.. tearing my heart into zillion pieces.. study also cannot.. no mood to do so.. find her also cannot.. always being rejected.. at home.. i could only think of her.. see her foto.. or sth.. in sch.. i dunnoe how to face to her.. and even dunnoe how to try talking to her.. her face.. her expression.. just make mi.. nothing to say.. the thoughts of the future is in my head.. the thoughts after 2 yrs later.. wad will life be then.. how can i gain a girl's trust.. be her frenz 1st...? =/ aren't i not honest to her enough?? i didn't make empty promises to her.. neither do i lied to her.. wad can i do...? so that.. i wun forget her.. and i wun be so sad... juz dun ask me to forget her.. I COULDN'T..!!!
[Hopeless-Soulless-Loveless]
-AnDY.AkA.nD-

a so call fine day...

2004-08-31T17:24:00.000+08:00

sickening day... i wish i nvr woke up todae.. i wished i could haf skip todae.. even if i haf to lose 1 day.. i still wanna skip todae.. for wad reason?? todae.. as usual.. i took the bus alone.. but not wif her.. then.. 1st saddness is inside me.. 2nd saddness.. is.. when i walked very very very slowly.. coz.. i'm really sad.. found out she's behind me.. then i act as if i dun care.. thinking shuld i gif her the letter i wrote personally..? but.. i walked to the generall office.. and turn back.. to found that.. der's no 1 behind me anymore.. i dunnoe where she gone.. she always will walk dat place de.. but todae.. she's not der.... obviously.. i'm being avoided.. i dun need to ask her anymore.. i dunnoe wad she's trying to me.. i REALLY DUNNOE ANITHING!! she's online.. but.. i'm hesitating to msg her 1st.. coz is pointless to msg her liao.. dun u think so...? third saddness... my mother had to go to sch.. and talk wif my teacher.. then forth saddness.. she said.. i cannot play bb and also cannot go out... fifth saddness... back to her again.. i sent a msg abt 12:43pm.. did i get any reply till now? wad time izzit now? 1724hrs even primary 2 student also know... more or less 5 hours.. see.. dun tell me she dun even take a look at her hp this 5 hrs... then.. i think the sixth saddness will come to me soon... coz i dun think she will msg me 1st...... god.. i did so much.. nvr expect too much.. and all i got is... this.... this is wad i get... how i wish.. i skipped todae... and dun wake up... i would be much more carefree... dun u guys think so...? imaging der's so many sad things happened to u in 1 day.. i feel so useless.. i feel so..... pathetic... i'm been treated like a fool.. all this while...

haha.. Wad's Love?? I'm SO STUPIDITY CONFUSED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2004-08-30T23:10:00.000+08:00

haiz~ once again.. a very very very very very extremely sad day for me.. why...? she said she dunnoe when i ask her will i get a chance after 2 yrs.. clearly.. some ppl will understand wad's dat.. but.. i still "sillily" thinks dat.. she dunnoe wad will happen after 2 yrs.. but i will wait... if she dun mind... haiz~ i asked so many ppl for comments.. all gave me the negative 1... obviously lor... sighx... WHY?!?!??!?!??!?!?!??!?!?!??!?!?!??!?!?!??!?!?!?!??!?!??!?!?!??!?!?!?!??!?!??!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!??!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!??!?!?!?!??!?!?!??!?!?!?!?!?!??!?!?!?!??!?!?!?!?!?!??!? i am soo FUCKING sad... dat's the word dat can explain my feeling now.. WHAT'S LOVE?!?!?!??!?!??!?!?! WHAT'S DAT?!?! GOD PLS COME DOWN AND EXPLAIN CLEARLY TO ME..... EDUCATION SCREWS US ALL... OH DAMN FUCKING ASS..... i AM SOOOO PISSED IN WADEVA I DOING NOW.. wadeva i wanna say..................... craps.. i feel so useless.. so crappy... so.. pathetically in love... pointless... IT'S ALL JUZ A DREAM!!!!!! WAKE UP ANDY!!!!!! WAKIE WAKIE!!!! -.-" haiz.. how i wish it's all a dream.. and i can woke up.. to find everything is wad i wanted.. nono.. is wad i NEEDED.... haiz.... being a human is so difficult.. a human is always no satisfied wif wad he has..... i haf feelings right now.. i wished i could be a robot..but...... being robot for the rest of my life.. would be boring.. dun u think so..? WAD DO I NEED?!?!?!???!?! CRAPS....... study study study.. this is the ONLY word in adults' dictionary..? nonono.. peharps not.. cert. work.. income... tax.. bills.. all relating to MONEY.. is wad's inside their MONEY-MINDED BRAIN.. craps.. how i wish i dun grow up.. coz 1 day.. i will haf a son.. peharps........ or maybe not.. coz WHO WANTS ME?!??! 1 day.. i will also become the MONEY-MINDED BRAIN!!! CURSED... all humans' life are cursed by fate.... and destiny... how i wish this 2 things dun exist... then i wun be so hurted RIGHT NOW..... i mean NOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! haiz....... i dunnoe wad the fuck is love...... love is.. abt beauty?? and money?? GOD pls send SOMEONE or Urself To come down and explain to each and every pitiful soul... i admit.. her beauty caught my sight.. but later.. i know she's also those kind of ger whose attitude is gd.. as in.. not those slutish bitchy bitch those kind.. she's so angelic to me... why????? i dunnoe.................................................... i really dunnoe.. i AM SO CONFUSED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! haiz~ god.. do u think i'm stupid? falling in love wif her??? or is this the test.. u giving me?? hahahaha... god.. pls dun play jokes on me.. coz i'm weak internally.. i will fail this kinda test.. this yr.. is totally CRAPS FOR me........ 1st my results.. then now wad?? my life... she's the oni one.. who really breaks up my heart.. and the oni one who really makes me so happy... dun blame me for this unbalanced mood.. coz i'm overly-sensitive to love le... nah.. i'm not devoted.. i muz declare.. but i haf the patient.. :) if not i wun wait for her for 3 hrs.. dat very thurs... after sch.. coz she got detention duty.. then girlguide.. and tried to send her home.. but it all failed.. when she alighted at the bus stop at hougang mall.. i dunnoe whether she's telling me the truth.. coz she told me.. she's going to watch cage match wif her frenz.. but i muz say.. i believe in wadeva she said.. i gave her all my heart le... i wonder why... haiz~ i wun blame her.. if she's not interested on me.. coz i got nothing attractive as well.. nothing unique.. i am juz who a human is... sigh.. luckily.. i kept this blog.. coz i feel kinda better to let it all out... haiz..

Something Which i Wanna Say To Her..DeBBiE =)

2004-08-28T21:03:00.000+08:00

sometimes I run.. sometimes I hide.. sometimes I'm scared of you.. but all I really want is to hold you tight.. treat you right, be with you day and night.. baby all I need is time.. I don't wanna be so shy.. every time that I'm alone I wonder why.. hope that you will wait for me.. you'll see that you're the only one for me.. (an extract from a song la..) :P but really.. i wanna tell her this.. hope she understand also... haiz~ life kinda boring.. sucky without her... without her replys... sigh.. everytime she replys me.. i'm oredi very glad.. and happie.. satisfied wif everything.. in addition.. her reply is sho cute... in such manner.. when i'm from a bad mood.. she can enlighten me wif her reply.. but i dun think she really know how to.. and when she did it.. she also dun realise it.. haha.. whenever i'm happie.. i think abt myself being so sad for nth.. is so.. stupid.. but when i'm back to saddness and sorrow.. all i wan and all i need is her... her consolation... sigh... impossible... dat's wad i dreamt ytd night.. how i wished.. i could nvr wake up from the dream ytd... how i wish... if i can choose.. i would rather dream of her... dreaming the totally impossible things... in my dream.. i dreamt abt her.. giving a peck on my cheek.. haha sound so ridiculous... sigh... she's so shy to talk to me.. let alone giving me a peck... haiz... dreams.. are juz dreams.. i nvr had one come true before... ppl believe dat dreams will come true.. i really hope dat dream ytd.. will come true... i'll be anticipating of it to come true... haiz~ when will it come true?? or will it nvr come true?? i dunch know... i juz wish.. god can make my dream come true.. juz dat only 1 dream... i dreamt so many dreams before.. but i juz wan god to grant me dat 1 dream ytd nite i dreamt... i promise.. i will cherish dat moment.. i will treasure her as well... sigh... what's love?? what's love to me?? giving all i could and dun expect it to come back in return?? i oredi tried to... but is this love?? and btw.. wad's so great abt getting high scores!??!?! i cant share my joy wif her as well.. why bother.... i rather get a lousy scores and be happy wif her.. than getting good grades.. and sad for my rest of my life.... if i'm sad living... dont u think is pointless to carry on...? juz like my love to her now... i really love her.. but does she really knows it..? how much she knew?? i dunnoe... all i know.. i dun wanna lose her.. i dun wanna lose her.... i dun wanna lose her to another guy... i juz dun wanna lose her to another guy.. pls... i wanna protect her till old........................................ !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! haiz~
With Hope And Wishes...
-AnDY.AkA.nD-
[Crestfallen]

Debbie wun know how much i love her...

2004-08-25T21:24:00.000+08:00

how much?? ALOT!!!! i love her dearly and deeply... why?? she's the sweetest, i ever met... i nvr seen such a sweet ger before.. seriously.... how i wish i met her long before everyone does... sigh.. time cant be rewind... she seems so wonderful to me... no matter wad others say.. i dun care... really... i dun care.. juz dun insult or discriminate her... anything not happy.. juz push everything to me.. not to her.... though she may looks simple and normal to u... she's juz sooo perfect.. so wonderful.. she's juz cute in wadeva she done.. she took it so simple no matter how hard i tried to warn her abt the lesbian.... lol.. kinda funny as well.. cute right? okie la.. i guess i haf to gif into her again.. lol.. BUT... i haf to protect her liao.. i muz take out all moi guts out and hope i could walk beside her.... kinda hard also la.. if she dun wan siam away.. then i will walk beside her de lor.. debbie.. i wanna tell u once again.. even if u dun like me.. i still love u.. even if u ingore me.. i still love u.. even if u got another guy beside.. i still love u.. even if u dun appreciate or cherish me.. i still love you.. no matter semo dong xi.. i still love u... haiz.. i really love u alot.. and this is not crap... this is the truth.. beneath the bottom of my heart...
With Love And Care
-AnDY.AkA.nD-

foul mood early morning..

2004-08-24T18:07:00.000+08:00

haiz.. todae dunnoe why i got the foul mood early morning.. ...ZzZ perhaps maybe saw her.. like kanna "harassed" by dat dunnoe how to say de ger.. who my frenz claims dat the ger is a butch.. "he" hug her until so tight.. machiam wan to make her fall.. then dunnoe she smiling at semo.. at first tot she cried... coz she smile.. then her hand cover her face.. bend low low.. tot "he" make her cry... then i abit du lan.. but.. i try my best to control myself.. and take a further look.. until i find out.. she's luffing.. god knows wad the hell dat "he" is talking to her abt... haiz~ perhaps she's too well known le.. nvm.. at least she nvr cry.. if she cry.. i dun care dat "he" is where wan.. though i know.. dat "he" is like act lian act chio wan.. who i used to discriminate at... with my frenz of coz.. dunnoe la... haiz~ dat early morning got foul mood.. until recess.. feeling better le.. then cw.. wan pass 'MY' curve ruler to nic. becuz of their maths test.. then i promise cw.. to lend him lend her.. blur? nvm.. then she.. i dunnoe... -.-" if she dun haf.. i planned to buy 1 new 1 from the bookstore.. at most skip my meal nia lor.. who cares... then cw.. dun dare to knock on the computer room door.. when they are inside.. he called me to help him.. then i knock.. i dunnoe she's seated infront.. i ask the teacher for nic. then she come out.. then i found out dat.. d..... is down der... lol.. dunnoe la.. dat time.. got no foul mood le.. coz i say her smile.. then face kinda red also.. feel so happie le... then after cw passed nic. curve ruler.. i said 'bye-bye' to her.. HER~ not nic. then dunnoe whether she knows anot.. coz she nvr responded... haiz~ nvm la.. at least can see her smile.. haiz.. dunnoe la.. i really sense dat.. i really love debbie liao... no lies.........
If she likes someone esle.. i hope she can tell me.. coz it will makes me more cherish her.. and love her more.. sighx... todae kanna mr jamil.. then haiz~ walk abit like pai kia.. coz i todae not happy.. lmao.. then thinks she saw me la.. walking like dunnoe wad.. like duck.. aye.. sho stupid wan lor.. stay back.. make her cannot see her duo zi yan... -.-"
i'm not a perfect person. there are many things i wish i didn't do but i continue learning. i never meant to do those things to you and so i haf to say before i go, that i juz wan you to know

i've found a reason for me, to change who i used to be a reason to start over new, and the reason is you.. i'm sorry that i hurt, its something i must live with everyday and all the pain i put you through, i wish that i could take it all away and be the one who catches all your tears, thats why i need you to hear

i'm not a perfect person, i never meant to do thoes things to you and so i haf to say before i go that i juz want you to know

i've found a reason for me, to change who i used to be a reason to start over new, and the reason is you
i'ver found a reason to show a side of me you didn't know a reason for all that i do, and the reason is you..
"Hoobastank - The Reason"
haiz.. i dun know how to sing la.. coz i scare i sing.. she run away.. lol.. aye.. hope u all understand.. i got a vocal cord.. which is not suitable for singing.. so.. i will apologize for the inconvience caused.. haha.. aye.. download the song la.. okok.. take care peeps.. :)
With Love, Care & Concern
-AnDY.AkA.nD-

moi DaE is lame Becuz of Bunch of Idiots in E class..

2004-08-23T21:26:00.000+08:00

todae.. really tio sabotaged like hell lor.. but i like it.. :P kidding la.. haiyo.. nxt time dun make such a huge opening for me lor.. i'm not used to it... -.-" kinda lame also lor.. my class.. shout my name.. then make me cannot take a glimpse on her.. sian sia.. u all shuld pity me lor.. fate let me meet her der.. and i am disturbed by classmate... -.-" dodo birds sia.. todae.. also a bit happy la.. coz.. can see her.. face red red.. :D and she smile.. OmIgOsh.. is like a fairy decended from heaven liddat... ...ZzZzZz dun say i too kua zhang lor.. but really.. to me.. dat's how i feel.. but if u guys dun feel it.. u dun know how to appreciate how to see a beauty... pengz... u all hoh.. dun be so mean to me nxt time la.. WeEeE also shave myself le.. lol.. muz be cleaner in appearance.. hehe.. 1st time shave.. if got mistake.. dun kp me hoh.. lol.. gimme some comments will do... :P anyway.. now i'm still thinking of her lor.. especially dat friendster de pix.. i "copyrighted" the pix into my comp.. the picture.. where she let down her hair.. and (V) :P sorry la.. couldn't control myself not to save that pix into my comp.. lol.. :P i certainly dun wanna wish to reformate my comp.. so.. pls ar.. tolong.. dun send me virus.. :P i dun wan tio virus.. then reformate.. now dun think her frenz got put dat foto le.. haha.. dun scold me la.. i know la.. nvr ask her permission.. a bit.. rude.. sorry la.. debbie.. forgive me la.. my hand couldn't stop.. then.. in the end.. i save it.. u so cute.. take foto.. then see liao.. always so cute.. sorry ar? but hoh.. if u nvr gimme permission.. i also will haf to defy u juz this once.. hehe... really.. i wanted ur foto very badly lor.. u know de right? foto will keep memories forever.. even though i could not be ur lover.. but i still wanna remember dat i know a cute ger as a frenz before.. and that.. she's enlighten up my sec 4 year..
Arigato Gozaimasu, Debbie Neo.... :)
With The Best Regards And The Ultimate Concern
-AnDY.AkA.nD-

Brand new haIr = brand nEw mi~

2004-08-22T22:26:00.000+08:00

WeeEee new hair~~ haiyo.. ytd was cracking my head wad style to change.. in the end.. i leave it to the salon to change fer me la.. lol... ytd.. tot i pissed her off.. coz i ask her wad to change.. then she say.. my hair.. i decide myself.. "sth" liddat lar.. haiz~ see her so hardworking.. nxt time sure can get gd results.. what abt me?? lol.. sec 2 i started to slack.. slacked for quite long le.. now wan to stand up.. also kinda hard.. well.. i think i haf to stand up real soon.. o lvl is coming... sigh.. o lvl is coming.. means i'm graduating.. pengz... dat's the reason why i ask her wad style shuld i change.. becoz i wan to let her know.. i will give in all to her.. coz i dun wanna lose her.. i dun wanna cause any disputes between each other.. BUT.. everything has a "but".. come to realise.. who am i to ask her this kinda question? lol.. she'll think i weird weird de... i go ask her abt my hairstyle?? -.-" a bit lame lar.. but then.. i wanna ask.. coz 1 more lame reason.. i no topic to talk to her abt le... kkkx.. =P Thus... i dunnoe how to get close to her.. -.-" and i dun think she wans me to get close to her also.. she'll take a step back.. dat's wad i fear..... dunnoe.. a brand new hair = a brand new me... gonna change as much as possible.. from a crazy attitude.. to a more cool attitude... -.-" haha.. kkk.. kinda late now.. i bet she's sleeping after "drilling" into her brain wif so many geo facts for her test tml.. haha.. =X
GaMbEtA~~ DeBBiE~~!!!
With Hope And Extreme Love
-AnDY.AkA.nD-

Boooooo~~ raIny daE...

2004-08-20T18:53:00.000+08:00

haiz.. sway sway.. after sch.. ji tao rain.. then she went back home ard 2.45 liddat.. dat time still rainning.. and i still ard the class de corridor.. coz i dunnoe she gone le.. ......ZzZzZzz she go le.. nvr wave hand to me thru window or sth.. haiz~ guess this is called one-sided love.. haiz.. heard from her frenz.. 3 ppl share 2 umbrella.. enuff meh? maybe she kanna lin dao.. haiz~ i got 1 spare umbrella lor.. can scold me stupid or wad.. i nvr use.. coz i bring juz to lend u... but she always reject my offer.. haiz~ why? she still treats me like a stranger?? *sIgH* she lin yu.. i'll heartbroken.. but if mi lin yu.. but not her.. how nice.. no one is heartbroken.. correct? haiz.. obvious one-sided love... haiz.. nvr wanted her to repay me or wadeva.. u dunch haf to feel bad as well.. coz i'm willing to.. i'm not paid or forced to.. haha.. i'm so useless lor.. cant even protect her from the rain.. still wanna protect her.... wad joke.. i'm soooo funny.. am i not..? budden.. if oni life wouldn't be so tough on me.. i might be happier now... sometimes juz hated the tie.. sometimes i juz love the tie... if not becuz of the tie she worn in sch.. i wun haf noticed her... i mean.. my time schedule is totally different to hers.. well.. for example.. she goes to sch so early everyday.. seriously.. if not becuz of her.. i wun wanna wake up at 5.45 early morning before the sun can come out and shine me.. juz everyday hope i could catch a glimpse on her thru the same bus.. and the time she went home when.. she's w/o duty in sch.. is so early.. then me ler.. with or without remedial.. see my mood then go home de.. haiz~ 1 angel.. 1 devil.. of coz.. needless to say.. i'm the devil.. and she's the angel.. budden.. it's hard for me to change into an angel.. haiz~ few more months before i graduate.. haiz... how am i going to see her when i graduate...? i wun even haf a chance to see her liao.. i mean.. if i wan.. i can.. early morning catch the same bus wif her.. then go back home again.. but.. kinda lame also.. ppl will also think i pervert.. sigh.. i am also getting older and older.. keep sighning.. haiz~ haf to end here..
With Love And Care.
-AnDY.AkA.nD-

Wo De AiAi.. Ni Zai Nan Li?!?! Wo Hao Xiang Ni Ar...

2004-08-19T19:19:00.000+08:00

hAiz~ wei he ta nan mo de hai xiu?? Why is she so shy?? haiz~ she shy.. make me can do nothing.. then i also cannot really "protect" her... haiz~ but i also wun like a not shy de ger.. ...ZzzZz contradicting myself lor.. haiz~ she's so cute.. i juz scare ppl will bio and bio her.. then take advantage... URGH..... i cant bear to see it lor.. say me violent also can.. this is how a guy would react.. even if i haf to die.. i will also protect her.. haiz~ wad's the point of msging.. i oni heard her voice for at most 3 times? i wish i could be her side all my entire life le.. she can treat me like a labourer.. like a frenz.. like a slave.. I DUN CARE!! i juz wanna be by her side.. sighx... as if she wants.. i dunnoe la.. all i know.. i gave every single pieces of my heart to her le... how can i tell her? do i haf to scream or shout? or voice it thru the sch P.A. system? or post newspaper? i dunnoe lor.. maybe this blog will help... i dunnoe now la.. where's she.. wad she's doing.. i dunnoe............................................ haiz~ seeing her busy wif things.. and i offer to help.. but...... she still treats me like a stranger.. i cant help.. i can oni see her.. sometimes saying a hi to her.. is as difficult as conquering mount everest... i dunnoe why.. see her.. my mouth go cramp.. and brain go malfunction.. i dunnoe why.. perhaps her smile juz "shock" me.. her smile juz attract ppl.. all i can say... she's a wonderful girl.. i dun expect her to accept me.. coz i dun wish to see such a good ger will gif up all the more yandao ppl for me, this useless dumb dumb.. i dunnoe wad i can do to make her smile.. make her happy.. but i will definately cherish her.. coz she's the oni ger who gave me such a sweet memory.. and also make my sec 4 life the sweetest.. even though she wun come and read my blog.. i still haf to say..
Debbie.. Wo Shi Zhen De Hen Ai Ni.. I Am Willing To Sacrifice For You.. I Juz Want You To Be The Most Happiest Girl In The World.. I'm Very Lucky To Know You... I'm Blessed.. Fate Let Me Meet You.. And All This Months.. I Really Cherish Everything.. Everything... And I Wish.. I Can Be By Your Side.. And If I Were To Die Tml.. I Still Wanna Tell You.. That I Love You.. I Really Fallen For You... No Matter What.. I Love You For Who You Are.. =)
-AnDY.AkA.nD-

SomE DaY..

2004-08-17T20:23:00.000+08:00

todae is juz another day which i'm happy yet regretted.. coz firstly.. she went to her locker.. she and her frenz shared de.. which is on the 4th floor.. my class de floor.. i walk pass her.. then her frenz down der.. dunnoe do wad.. make me kinda pai seh.. then.. aye.. missed a chance to talk to her.. then is like.. very regret when i see her walk out of the sch.. coz she wun wan mi to accompany her home.. which girl wants? hAiZ~ then melvin down der.. scare he go disturb her.. so.. i distracted melvin.. lame right? lata ppl think i crazy.. go de siao him.. which is not the fact.. i juz dun wan her to get harassed by him nia lor.. then see her walk out of the sch.. but she nvr turns back.. haiz~ my life juz shucks.. doesn't it..? haiye.. how i wish i could sms her now.. but ppl busy wif work.. not like me.. still lazing ard.. >.<
I'll be here...
Why...?
I'll be 'waiting'... here...
For What?
I'll be waiting...for you...so...
You'll find me
I promise.
haiz.. juz wanna let her know.. i'll wait for u, d..... :) todae also nothing much happen.. orh.. juz bought some ear sticks.. and a pair of white canvas shoe.. for schooling.. my present shoe is going to spoil.. haha.. mother scold me.. say i 1 month change 1 pair.. li hai bah?? aye.. nth much todae happen.. oni shouted i miss her at my corridor.. dunnoe whether she ting de dao mah... but seriously.. i really miss her... 30 minutes w/o her.. is like spending a yr.. and 1 day.. imagine how torturous it is bah.. and so.. i am very happy to see her todae.. :D sooo happy.. and for u guys' info. she's the 1st ger i ever did this most for.. and all i can say.. i really did cherish her... juz hope she dun disappoint me....
With Love And Care...
-AnDY.AkA.nD-

toDaE Bery BIg daE..

2004-08-16T18:53:00.000+08:00

WeEeEe big day lor.. 1st time so focused during chinese lesson.. haha.. big right? celebrate wif me la.. todae de mood also very good la.. though nvr kan dao her.. also cannot everyday peep at her right? later ppl think i pervertic wan sia.. dunnoe why todae mood so good.. haha.. maybe monday is a very fun day.. dunnoe~ lalalala~~~ how i wish i can see her smile again.. :X lame sia.. aye.. juz a fat wish nia.. juz love to see her smile.. smile until machiam got sun behind her liddat.. soooooooooo warmth.. OmIgOsh.. kkk.. dun always mention things abt her.. lata frenz jealous.. LoL.. heya peeps out der.. u all read hoh.. juz read and 4get it hoh.. dun anyhow spread lor.. RoFl.. thx ar~~ aye.. todae i ate the japanese store de rice.. find it very disgusting lo... dun wan to eat liao.. then.. haha.. nvr mention dao any frenz yet.. ho la.. now i mention.. todae i missed out a "dogfight" sia.. bobo vs. alex they say alex dodge until very nice.. then hit bobo.. then in the end talk and talk.. both go back to ur kennel la.. lol.. :P kidding la.. nxt time got fight to watch hoh.. muz ask me go and see also.. i dun mind be referee lor..
hehe.. todae really mi abit siao sia.. dunnoe la.. mood so nice todae.. juz talked to her on msn.. she say she got test.. then she go study.. :D guai kia.. not like me.. slack and slack de.. GamBeTa, D......!!! :D and lastly.. i wanna dedicate song.. can hoh? u all ownself download hoh? :P kkkk... Graduation By "Vitamin C" to everyone kay..? especially peeps who have known me since pri. sch.. :)
-AnDY.AkA.nD-

another entry~

2004-08-15T20:22:00.000+08:00

haha.. juz bored so make another entry.. todae.. i nvr sms her.. coz i think i shuld gif her space.. if not everyday sms.. which ger wun feel irritated..? dun wanna disturb her as well.. lately.. she's juz very busy over things... i wanna let her know.. i sms her not because i'm free to do so.. is i care and concern for her... In a minute.. i'm always free for her for 60seconds.. in an hour.. 60 minutes.. a day.. 24hours.. a week.. 7days.. a month 30days.. and a year 365days free for her.. and will always be der for her.. if i really wanna sms u.. i can do it everytime.. so long as u dun change ur no. :P
talking abt my day todae.. haha.. juz another day i stayed at home.. slacking and lazing ard.. woke up at 10+.. but find myself kinda sleepy.. and went on sleeping.. till 12+ i was panic.. coz i dun wanna waste my sunday sleeping ard.. so no matter how tired i am.. i still woke up.. juz wondering what is she doing now.. and where is she.. juz hoping she can come online.. so i will msg her in msn.. perhaps ppl think i gave too much love to u le.. but i still think.. i gave my love to her is still not enough.. here's a poem by william shakespears:

No sooner met but they looked;
No sooner looked but they loved;
No sooner loved but they sighed;
No sooner sighed but they asked one another the reason;
No sooner knew the reason but they sought the remedy.

can i dedicate to her?? can la.. lol.. those dun understand de.. figure out urself la.. lol.. i juz find this poem very very interesting.. not because is by william shakespears lor.. very interesting lor.. well.. juz finish my dinner.. nth to say also.. lol.. haf to end this entry le.. ciao peeps~
-AnDY.AkA.nD-

Bo t|tlE

2004-08-14T14:34:00.000+08:00

hehe.. once again.. it's me!! boring sia.. spend my day like dunnoe wad... eat sleep drink.. very fast.. ytd finish le.. ytd ar.. all i can say.. i'm very very depressed... didn't know she's very busy wif her proj. then she neber reply me.. feel very sian.. haiz~ keep thinking here and der la.. sian sia.. todae.. saw her.. so hardworking.. doing guide de test.. then dunnoe whether she got see me anot la.. GaMbEtA!! though by now is over dunnoe how long ago liao le.. haha.. aye.. todae.. a good day.. coz i can play bb.. quite hot.. keep drinking water.. sian sia.. dunnoe why weather so hot nowadays.. water!!!! i need them.. still havan started my revision for o lvl.. anyway.. i also juz pierced my stupid pig ear.. then.. parents still dunnoe yet.. coz they both not at home ytd night.. now ler.. i'm still alone at home.. nothing to do lor... u know.. home w/o ppl juz so quiet.. and also noisy.. coz of the stupid fish tank de water pump.. pump water into the tank.. so noisy.. hate it sia.. sleep at night.. whole house very quiet.. then the stupid tank.. shooooooooo loud.. haiz~ dunnoe la.. juz hope i can finish my artifact and folio for D&T by 31 Aug.. deadline sia.. then i will bo chap mrs choy liao.. stupid idiotic naggiest teacher i ever seen in my entire life sia.. call my house not enough.. then ask mi mother for her hp no. then bo tai bo ji.. call my mother and complain abt my attitude.. si bei bo liao ar... then now.. bo tai bo ji send registered letter to mi house.. bo liao right?? sway ar.. gif her teach.. then say my mother is her frenz.. si bei bhb also lor.. then i tell my mother she's siao eh.. then my mother and father ask me juz do wadeva she wans la.. and dun make her call for nth... lol... 1st time i can scold teacher siao infront of my parents lor.. haha... aye.. see lor.. o lvl result good.. i will go back thank mr pang and other teacher.. except her.. rofl.. and shun bian see her in sec 3... WeEeEe this yr she streaming.. mi having o lvl... haiz~ juz wish she can get into wad course she wants to.. :D and also.. all the best to those who are sitting o lvl wif me.. except other sch wan la.. other sch wan.. hope they scold until bad bad la.. this is reality.. HaHa..
-AnDY.AkA.nD-

'Moodless' Day

2004-08-12T19:33:00.000+08:00

todae is the day i felt so sad before.. why? chinese get lousy result la.. still got wad.. haiz~ i wish i can see her smile to me.. but..... i'm too ashamed to face her.. haiz~ i felt so useless all of the sudden.. haiz~ i'm juz a slacker... how can i be compatible to her.. it's like she's on heaven and me in hell.. sighx... stupid face i'm borned wif.. it's all fated.. i dunnoe wad to say liao la.. juz end here la.. no mood to write any further more..

TiRinG DaE

2004-08-11T20:09:00.000+08:00

GoSh.. todae sure is very tired.. so sian lor.. so upset at the wae i react when i saw her.. dun haf say hi.. i see her.. then dunnoe she got see me not.. pengz.. then juz walk pass each other machiam like stranger.. haiz~ juz hoping 1 day she would say hi to me 1st.. but i sure wun get the chance de la.. see my fu*k face.. she dunnoe run till where liao.. still wan her to say hi to me.. nvr run away.. shuld be happie le.. *sIgHx* all i haf done is oni for my one-sided love? i've been asking myself.. how i wish.. my heart could stop beating for a moment.. and let me see who're the ones who really concern abt me.. her smile is juz an additional item to her face to beautify her.. even when she's not smiling or wadeva.. she's oredi the most beautiful to me.. haiz.. if only..... if only i knew her long ago... my life would be so much more enlightened.. by her cute way of replying.. thus.. i wanna let her know.. i believe in wadeva she said to me.. i hope she nvr lied to me.. coz i will be very upset.. the rivers will dried up.. so do my blood..
-AnDY.AkA.nD-

homE alonE

2004-08-10T18:15:00.000+08:00

*yAwNz* BorIng daE... ytd and todae whole day at home.. rotting liao.. nth to do somemore.. lazy to go out.. but feel like going out.. haiz~ sickening sia.. hand itchy.. wanna play bb again.. but no one gonna play wif me.. buy this stupid ball.. in the end.. so heavy.. dun feel like using it to play..
once again.. me still in this virus of love.. how i wish some clever scientist could come up an anti-biotic of this virus.. haha.. haiz.. wondering what she's doing now.. always tio reject when i ask her to pei me catch a movie or sth.. sian sia.. sometimes juz wish i'm a robot.. or rather not being borned to this miserable world.. haiz.. it's all fated.. thinking abt her.. will make me think abt sch.. then think abt tml.. think abt tml.. wed is D&T.. craps.. 31aug deadline.. me still slacking.. Oh mI GoSh!! education juz screw human beings.. UrGh...... no education.. no tests and exams.. no education.. no global competitions.. no education.. LIFE would be much more better.. feel like cursing dat guy who came up wif this idea of education.. but.. haiz~ no education.. no school.. no sch.. no HISC board.. no HISC board.. no tie.. no tie.. i wun haf any chance to notice her.. juz wondering.. why am i borned wif a stupid face.. a face who everyone claims to be a f*ck face.. haiz~ my fate and destiny.. why do i love u..? becoz u are the oni ger i need... the only ger who can keeps me going... the only ger who can makes me feel comfortable with.. the only one who can persuade me to carry on life.. to the world.. u maybe juz someone.. but to me.. u're my whole world.. my everything.. nvm if u dun like me.. juz show ur appreciation to me wif a smile.. i'll be very happy.. i'll thank god for giving a life to discover u.. ur presences in this world..
-AnDY.AkA.nD-

BorIng daE

2004-08-09T12:52:00.000+08:00

lalala.. very sian la.. then rite this stupid entry.. lol.. really very stupid wan la.. dun read la.. dun read.. :) lol.. ytd go watch firework wif mi bro and sis.. though the stupid building block quite a no. of the fireworks.. still quite nice la.. haiz.. todae mi not going down again lor.. so crowded.. hate to squeeze thru crowds.. reach home quite late.. lucky parents nvr lock the door.. if not i'll haf to sleep outside liao.. haha.. ytd too tired liao.. shower finish jiu go bed and koon le.. so dun got any energy to touch moi comp le.. now very bored lor.. sister go on kids central.. then watcht the stupid dunnoe wad carebear de cartoon.. lame sia.. haiz~ every seconds i'm thinking of her.. wondering how's she feeling now.. and what she's doing also.. juz hope she dun tired herself out.. robots also need to rest wan wor.. let alone we, humans.. kay? haiz.. sometimes juz feel so useless.. nxt yr sure will not be ard in sch to watch over her le.. sigh.. how'll be my life like... i haf no idea also.. haiz.. seeing ppl studying now for o lvl.. me still got mood to play.. actually no lor.. i still got no motivation yet.. ....ZzZzZz think last min will come de lor.. damn stupid de la.. i'm juz a slacker.. happy-go-lucky de.. lol.. haiz~ do i haf to wait for u for 2 more yrs?? if u say yes.. i will.. till the day u took ur o lvl.. but i haf to be honest.. i wun know wad'll happen after 2 yrs.. but i'll tell u now.. i'm really true to u..
-AnDY.AkA.nD-

The Day Of Creation..

2004-08-08T13:18:00.000+08:00

aye.. juz plain bored.. nth to do also.. so i juz come and play play.. create sth outta my time rather than keep thinking of her and do nth at all.. in fact.. i'm still thinking of her every now and then.. haiz.. well.. dunnoe how to do a nice nice de blog.. so i juz do it plain plain 1st la.. then got time slowly edit la.. hehe.. :D

haha 1st day alot of things to say la.. haiz.. it's been four mths le.. stil remembered how i gotten her no. ask my frenz help me.. then he take from her fren.. then somemore 1st msg is sent by my fren.. using my hp.. lol... coward right? see me this kind u think unbelievable hoh..? cannot helped it.. i'm juz feigning tough on the outside.. but i'm juz weak on the inside.. haiz.. todae.. see her nick.. can do nth for her.. feel sooooooo extremely useless.. sick and tired.. sigh... how i wish i'm the one who's sick and tired.. sometimes juz dun wanna say things which is mushy.. makes me machiam like a bhb guy.. if she dun like.. she'll think i'm a irritating guy.. haha.. but nvm.. at least i still can get her reply.. regardless of how long she took to reply.. i'm still happy.. haiz~ why cant i accompany her home.. now i feel like i'm been avoided by her.. i dunnoe why.. how i feel.. is terrible.. i feel so inferior.. sigh.. now the conversation is stuck der.. recently she is so cold to me.. perhaps maybe is the stress she gotten.. but i nvr blame her for dat.. seeing her so restless juz hurt me deep down.. as i cant even help her to do simple like carrying her bag for her..
lol.. this blog has turned into my confession board sia.. nvm.. i been bottling up this few days.. i guess it's time i let it out.. well.. i also wanna take this time to apologize to all those whom i've treated badly or showing attitude towards.. sorry.. :)